DEATH

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well all... I can remember being 22 and facing my own mortality at that time. It definitely sent me over the edge! I'll tell you, Jeanie, I think you're absolutely right that we fear death because we fear the unknown. I've learned to not be afraid anymore and I'll tell you why.

Watching a couple of people die, actually. I won't go into details...but there is NO WAY that one of them had someone come and pick her up before she died, and the other one was talking to someone before she passed... I'm telling you. It gave me faith that there is something else out there, and someone will be coming to get me when it's my time.

I know that might sound far-out to people, but I really do believe it. I believe there is a heaven, and that we meet up with the people we've loved and lost once we get there... I am not a religious person, but those two seperate experiences made me a spiritual one...

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Ok, wait a sec. what i mean to say was that there was NO WAY that someone did NOT come and pick her up... that's what I get for posting without previewing what I wrote!

[Warmsoul/Jeanie13]

Not sure of 'the after', just believe that there have been some very special people in my life, that have left me alone. Don't believe they would just leave me, believe they watch over me and are waiting for that time, my time.

Guess in time we will all have those answers.

Warmie

[aim]

agreed, jeanie. I just hope I don't find out for a long long time! LOL
(((((((((Jeanie)))))))))

[Warmsoul/Jeanie13]

Can understand, but when it is time, well you know the saying.

[aim]

It's so strange. When my health anxiety was at its worst, it wasn't even death I was really afraid of, it was being sick. It was stigmas attached to being sick. I can't say if I ever really feared the actual death. It was the getting to the death that frightened me the most.

But then I think, when I was going through my breakdown, i was afraid to leave the house because I was pretty convinced I was going to get hit by a bus, or something. So was it death I was afraid of? I dont' even know, anymore.

Forgive me, but since it's been so long, I can finally look back and try to figure out what was wrong with me back then. I don't want history to repeat itself, that's for sure... I can remember reading my journal from that time in my life and feeling so sorry for the girl who was writing it...

sorry for the ramble. Couldn't stop...

[Warmsoul/Jeanie13]

((((( aim )))))

Ramble on, what this is all about.

[aim]

(((((Jeanie))))))) I appreciate that... very much. I'm saying so many things on these forums that I haven't said in a long time... I appreciate this; very much. Thank you.

[Warmsoul/Jeanie13]

Nice to have a safe place to do this, isn't it.

((((( aim )))))

[aim]

Yes, it is. it's a shame more people don't use these forums, huh? I find this very very good for my mental health! How are you, Jeanie? Feeling ok?

[Warmsoul/Jeanie13]

Perhaps they will in time. Glad it helps you aim.

Sure I am am doing just fine, feeling more human, TY for asking. You?

[aim]

Hey Jeanie. So glad that you are doing well - both physically and mentally. I'm decent, hanging in there. It's hard missing someone, but I'm trying to tough through it knowing that it won't be forever. Thanks.

[Warmsoul/Jeanie13]

Thanks. glad you are doing decent.

Would be nice to have someone to miss, but yep, hang in there, sure it won't be long.

Nope, not forever, for 'forever' is a very long time.

YW

[aim]

(((((((Jeanie)))))))) you're a great woman, do you know that? You're one of the toughest people I've ever known with a big heart to match. You're in my thoughts...

[Warmsoul/Jeanie13]

((((Aim ))))) thank you for your kind words. Don't know what to say.

Perhaps a didn't link, this one has a title that is a little unnerving, sorry.