Further down the spiral

[MechanicalFlesh]

I never attempted this yet so here we go.
I'm not sure how exactly I became such a depressed nobody, but it seemed to hit me around 11-12. Although it feels like my whole life. Around the time I started noticing girls it hit me that I'm worthless. I always feel ugly,useless,stupid, whatever. I'm pretty much known as the demi-downer or creep or weird. And I honestly just hate life. I hate myself. The very existance that as me irritates me so much. I always feel the urge to jump out of my skin. I don't feel I will ever be the person I wish to be. I don't get life it all seems so pointless. I can't seem to excel in anything i try. Can't get a date to save my life, no joke. I'm uninteresting. I don't know jack about squat. I hate waking up just exhausted. All i want to do is sleep because I can't manage anything else. Since I am just so incompetent at life all I want is to die. I'd like this to be over already.

[myhauger]

I know exactly how you feel, I've felt exactly like that pretty much all of my life. Know this, that these criticisms whereever they may have come from, are lies and that you are a great person and special. we are all special in our own ways and never forget that.