it's been five years, is it going to be forever?

[videocassette]

It's been about five years, since i was a sophomore in high school, that i became depressed. I used to think i was just going to outgrow it and i guess that could still be true since i'm only 20 but it just gets worse and worse.

I'm at the point where if i get the chance to be alone in my bed for more than 5 minutes i'm thinking about killing myself and every time i start making plans with friends and getting out there and talking to people and sincerely having fun and enjoying my days and feeling like a normal person i'll catch a second where i realize that no one cares about me at all and why would they because i have absolutely no good qualities about me and that i'm nothing and then i can't show my face in public for a month until i'm bored and i start it all over again.

[fallen]

i care and i know that other people on here do aswell , i think that if you are a kind person then you are the most successful person you can be.
everything after this point, you just add to your greatness.
take care

[Pilule]

I hardly think that you have no qualities. You might even have more than most.