The Daemon comes forth

[CTDaemon]

I am known as The Daemon, or, in the real world, I go by two names, but you can call me Adrian. The nickname (Daemon) comes from a computer technology word that means "a program that manages a specific category of processes in the background". Essentially, I am like one in that I take care of many different things behind the scenes, where nobody but those directly involved know I'm there. I like a lot of things and have a large diversity of interests, but none of that can help with the reason I'm here: I am severely depressed. My case started when I was very little: my father was abusive to me and my mother, and would regularly attack one of us whenever he got mad. He passed away in April 2007 to Leukemia, due to his exposure to bio-weapons during Desert Storm. After his death, my mom took my brother, sister, and me to live in Puerto Rico where she was raised, so we could be near her family. When I got here, things were good until I started school. Because of my past in the states (being involved in a drug war, for instance, and my history with my father), I made a bad first impression on my school, and they would often (still do) call my a psycho and start rumors that would get me in trouble with the school, and I would often have to unnecessarily defend myself in front of the dean and directors. Currently, I am recovering after my second hospitalization, and I have a small support group (as a large part of it is starting to break away). My girlfriend of two months, my teacher, and one of my friends, sometimes my mom, are all I have to support me. I live with my grandmother, but she is also depressed and refuses to admit when she does wrong against me, which is very often. I am a very social person, but often will get struck with negative emotions at various times and very few people come out of those crises with a positive image of me. The only ones who have seen one of them and has not been scared of me are my previously mentioned friend, and other ex-patients from the hospital (Cidra). I have experienced several tramautic situations that I have not yet recovered from, and still often have crises (during the day) or nightmares because of them. I'm here because I don't know where else I can go to ask for help and not hear the same things. Things like "it's all in your head" or "don't worry about it", because it is not all in my head, and I can't help but to worry about it.

Sorry about droning on, but this IS supposed to be an introduction, and this one paragraph is not even close to a full introduction...

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