Qualities of concern, and some history.

[thekoala]

Removed for self-security.

[katcho]

Hey Koala .

To me, from what I can gather, it sounds like you probably have a Cluster B personality disorder, but I highly doubt you have OCPD. Possibly APD?

I would recommend taking a personality disorder test, or (if it's possible) seeking answers from a therapist or psychologist if you feel comfortable being completely honest with them.
(It's not until I was completely honest that I was diagnosed with Schizoid Personality Disorder, which I probably actually do "have"). I know (myself anyways) that there is not much things worse than someone labeling you with a "disorder", but as it applies to the DSM-IV, you probably do have a personality disorder of some sort.

On another note, thanks for sharing.

[aim]

Hi Koala... I have to agree that you should talk to a professional, be totally honest (perhaps bring the list you wrote out) and get a proper diagnosis. Good luck to you