My story and how I came to be depressed

[Candy0530]

Hi my name is Candy. I am 42 years old, married with two kids. I am into Martial Arts. I have become extremely friendly with my Taekwondo Master. We have been best friends for 2 years. He is the greatest person on earth. We talk every night, he makes me feel special, he understands me, helps me I think he is awesome. We have gotten so close. Now I have become extremely jealous when I see him talking to other girls in class. So jealous that I started getting panic attacks. If there is a night he can't talk to me on facebook because he is busy, I get a panic attack and become depressed. Lately I have been paranoid with him. Thinking he's with a girl, thinking all sorts of crazy thoughts that he is going to not be friends with me anymore once he finds a girlfriend. I have a huge fear of loosing him. Our friendship. It's making me crazy and depressed and I don't know why.

My Husband and I have no problems. My Husband is good to me. He knows what a good friend this guy is and accepts it. I am getting worse with my depression and anxiety. I don't know what's wrong with me over this friend of mine. I'm waiting on calls from a Pshycologist.

Thanks for listening. Any advice or thoughts would be appreciated. I feel like I'm loosing my mind over him.