I just don't even know anymore

[Mommyofone]

It's hard to get this out. I've internalized it for so long. It's hard to tell anyone because I'm afraid if I tell someone, that person will go tell this other person that my story involves. I have been having completely awful mood swings lately and it is just exhausting. I can't stand feeling like this but I'm not one to make big decisions without giving every ounce of my being towards making things work out. I can't stand where I am... Can't sleep, I'm losing my appetite. I'm unfamiliar with this person I've become and it scares me... But I feel stuck.