the lowest low

[loveleighmummy]

Hi, I'm new here, and I'm just looking for support. Heres my story:
I am 32, I have 3 daughters (the oldest 2 live with their fathers and my youngest lives with me). I have been living with major depression, severe anxiety and borderline personality disorder for over 10 years now. I have been to doctors, therapists, tried many different medications....and sometimes I have good patches where I can enjoy my friends and family and handle every day life, but mostly everyday life is a struggle for me. I am on social security because I can not handle working. So money is always a huge stressor for me. I recently lost my apartment and had to move back in with my mom and stepfather. My stepfather doesn't believe in mental illness and tells me I am disgusting and lazy. My mother constantly points out my flaws and is very negative about everything. Neither of them acknowledge the small accomplishments I do make. Living here is making all of my symptoms worse, but I have no where else to go.
The last few weeks have been really difficullt. My anxiety has been really high, and my depression has been very bad. I do not have a good support system. I feel like my issues get worse as I get older, and nothing is getting better. I just wish I could be normal.

[Lucie]

Just read your post,lovely....it is awful when even your own familly turn their backs,I really feel for you.
My depression has slowly built up due mainly to my partners alcoholism and refusal to acknowledge the problem or care that it what is happening impacts on me,spose if he did he would have to deal with it and he doesn't want to stop drinking.

You say you have been through therapy,are you getting any help now?
Please take care x

[hollyann]

loveleighmommy

I dont know if you are in the states, but perhaps if you are you can try public housing. Some apartments have their own form, and some have where you go through the housing authority. This is different from section 8 and the waiting list is usually shorter.

I know that sometimes they aren't always the best area's, but sometimes the peice of mind in provides is worth it.

wishing you the best of luck

hollyann

[loveleighmummy]

Hollyann....I am on a waiting list for housing specifically for people with mental illness, but the wait is 2-4 years long. I am also on a wait list for a private low income apartment complex, wait time is 3 years. I also just got the application for section 8 assistance. I just feel like the waiting for something to come through is so hard! But thank you for replying and for your suggestions.

To the person who replied before (i didn't see a name?) I am currently in therapy