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[toyarenee]

hi,i been battling with depression everyday and its getting harder each day i breath. i have two sons that keep me alive. i have a husband that doesnt have a clue or just dont care at all. i dream about running off and starting a new life but i deeply and really know that running away will not solve my problems.

[Silver]

Hello toyarenee. If you don't mind, I have a few questions. To start, are you seeing anyone for professional help, or have you at least considered it? Sometimes merely having someone to talk to can help immensely. Also, if you have seen help, are you on any type of treatment? And last but not least, it seems you care deeply for your sons. Do you confide in them to help ease your troubles? Currently, I do not have children, as I'm only 18, but I do share a lot with my mother, as does she. I feel that, through the years, we've both relied on each other to cope, and though we occasionally disagree, I truly value her guidance. I know she also values mine. Having at least one person to connect with can make all the difference.

I'll cross my fingers for you that all goes well, and I wish you all the best. *hug*

[melissa79299]

I can tell you that as a women w/o kids I understand your point that they keep you alive...I feel worthless as a women without children...I guess the saying the grass is not always greener on the other side kinda fits your situation...have you told your husband you are depressed? I am beginning to think most men don't know how to deal with emotions well...but if you tell him how you feel he might want to help you if he can

[lady1]

I understand your feelings so much. I have 2 kids. One is adult and has since moved out and I have a 12 year old with me. My husband doesnt understand my depression and just belittles it. He says everyone gets depressed but everyone else handles it. He dont understand the way I feel and sometimes I myself dont. I just long for the day that I can feel proud of myself for something or make someone proud of me. Its a dream