22 year old, mental break..Hi!

[Stephanie28w]

Hi guys, I'm new to all this including this bad of depression. I'm 22 have a boyfriend of 6 years, recently quit my job because I had a mental break down and and now dealing with severe depression and really unsure how to cope anymore, and being at home all day alone isn't helping. I've been on so many medications in the past month since the break down so I don't know if that could have anything to do with it. I'm on Lamictal and Wellbutrin now and all I do is cry. I sit at home waiting for my boyfriend to come home and cry because it just seems to hurt to breathe, it hurts to be alone, i just shake and cry and even the smallest thing like eating (which i used to LOVE) is overwhelming and brings no satisfaction, no joy nothing. All I do is feel pain. And I don't know why, I don't know whats going on with me. I don't have a reason, nothing horrible has happened to me so on top of feeling all this I feel guilty for feeling this way. I joined a gym and am exercising, trying to eat healthy and I know it has only been a month of this but its crushing. I wake up early in panic attacks I cry the entire way to the gym, I'm lonely but afraid to talk to people. Nothing brings me joy anymore and I'm terrified of my boyfriend leaving me cause I haven't snapped out of it yet. I just want some hope that it will get better. It has to right?

[dd-va]

Hello Stephanie
I hope th at things do improve for you soon. How long have you been on the meds, sometimes it can take them awhile to work properly and sometimes changes/adjustments have to be made before they will work for you. Feel free to continue posting here, we also have chat room here that is another great source for support. Take Care!

[balcony]

Hi Stephanie and welcome. It sounds like you are doing some great things to help yourself. I am sure getting to the gym is very difficult, good for you. The medications can take up to 6 weeks to have an effect and many times people talk about trying several different ones and different combinations before they find what is right for their bodies.

Keep posting here and remember you are not alone.

[St8arrow]

---. I just want some hope that it will get better. It has to right?

If I am guessing right, I think you are feeling depressed about your weight. If you google Alan J. Frances M.D. (psychiatrist) you will find that one of the side effects of these kind of medications is uncontrolled weight increase. You will find this information on the left side of his webpage under the heading of ---Recent Posts. Click on --- Perhaps this will etc. Second paragraph, second line.

From Stephanie28w

I've been on so many medications in the past month since the break down so I don't know if that could have anything to do with it. I'm on Lamictal and Wellbutrin now and all I do is cry.

From St8arrow:

As I have said to others, find yourself a Cognitive Behavioral Therapist who isn't hell bent on trying every drug that is on the market. He or she should also have a strong sense of empathy for those that he or she is trying to help.

That doesn't include some Psychiatrist who gives you a pill and two minutes of his or her time and schedules your next appointment 3 months from now. It won't get better by magic. It requires that you make good decisions. Good luck and good skill at making those decisions.