just what i feel

[domlpool]

ive suffered with depression since i was 14. ive self harmed and have attemped suiside numerous times. i feel alone, angry, sad, hurt, confused, nervious, disgusted in myself, pathetic, i feel stuck, lost im in pain evry day i cover it with a smile that smile has become a habbit more than anything else ive coverd what i feel for so long its become second nature to me even now whilst im typing this i just want to throw meself in front of on coming traffic i cant bare are the thought of spending the rest of my life feeling like this but i cant see me ever not feeling like this either i dont know what to do anymore ive got no fight left in me ive been the doctors an she has put me on citralopen but i dont see how a little pill is gonna make evrything ok againe and it sertenly hasnt so far what am i ment o do when i feel like this just suffer because i dont know how long i can