Depression at age 13

[Paigee]

Hi my name is paige and im 14. The first time i went into depression was right after my bestfriend past away. Her name was megan and she past away on december 9, 2010. At that time i was 13 and in the 8th grade.

Megan was the bestfriend you could ever want. She was the one that made you smile when you were having a bad day. She would never let be upset. Me and megan were friends since 1st grade. We had planes that we were going to be bestfriends, but one day that changed.

On December 9, 2010 my lifed changed from one simple phone call. I was in the store getting some things and i got a call from my friend brandi. She called me and she was cring and she couldnt stop cring. I said " Brandi whats wrong please tell me." Brandi said "Paige im sorry, Megan passed away. You never think that this would happen to you, but it does. Megan passed away by suicide. She was going threw alot and thought it would never get better.

Megans funeral was on December 13. I went and met her family to say goodbye to her for that last time. The worst thing of my life was saying goodbye to my bestfriend forever, i would never see her agin. We got done saying goodbye and went and sat in the church while everyone said the memorize they had with her. There were soo many good memorize that me and her had. I went to tell her mom that i love her ad her mother hugged me and told me that she loves me and that she never knew megan felt that she needed to do this to herself.

After the funeral, we were out for christmas break from school. Normally, i would go places and hang out with my friends. Well, i didnt come out of my room for 5 days straight. I would eat anything and i wouldnt talk to anyone. I felt like i was alone and that i would never have that person i could call when i was cring or have that person there to make my day better . My mom started getting really worried so she decided to call my doctor and my doctor said i was depressed. So they took me to go get helpl.

I told them i didnt need help and that i wasnt going to talk to anyone. I gave in and talked to my counsileer. Going to a counsiler was a good idea. I could acually talk to someone and i could tell them how i felt and i could cry in front of her without her judging me. It made me felt good to beable to talk to someone and tell them my problems instead of holding them in. I still break down and cry sometimes but thats because i miss her. I still have my days were i dont want to talk to anyone, megan will always be in my heart. I love her with ALL my heart.

If you are going threw depression you might not know it, I didnt! Depression is not fun, it is a very dark place. You need to talk to someone it helps i promise. I have went threw it and i didnt think talking to someone would help but it does.

Thank you for reading my story.

[Obayan]

I'm sorry you lost your friend. Sounds like you cared for her very much. But I am glad you are talking to someone and seeking help in your grief. I lost my husband 3 years ago. It's still really hard, but with time it is getting better.

[balcony]

Hi Paige, thank you for sharing your story with us. You are a very good writer for such a young person. I am so sorry to hear about Megan. I am sure your sadness was deep and painful. Friends are everything and they make us feel so much more a part of life. When we are happy, we wish to share that with our friends, and when we are sad, we want our friends to feel our sadness. Your loss was great and you did the best thing in the world by talking to someone about it. Pain never goes away but it softens over time if we get the help we need. Sometimes it softens so much that something good or wonderful becomes known to us. I am not saying that anyone will ever replace Megan, but, through your life you will be enriched by other wonderful friends. You must not lose hope in that. Megan was silently suffering and it was not your fault in anyway, always remember that. I am sure the time you spent with her made her very happy.
Take care.