It Came from nowhere

[Only Mika]

I was raised by anxious and dominant women. My grandmother had what they called, in her day, a nervous breakdown. So, I have always be high strung and on edge...no biggie. Well, I have Rhuematiod Arthritis(great genetics), and last March I got hurt at work. So I have been battling RA and the injury. Because of my injury, I was had to resign from my job as a teacher, it seems that my injured knee is not reliable. In the beginning, I coped with being stuck at home. I began to have panic attacks and my insomnia got worse, so i went to the Psychiatrist, I was put on meds for anxiety and panic attacks. As of late, the last 2 months, I have found myself in this funk. Originally, I tried to brush it off, but it only got stronger. The last 2 weeks have been pure torture. I cry all the time, especially the last two weeks, I am tired, forgetful, I feel heavy, worthless, ungrateful. In my rational mind, I keep saying, "compared to others, I am blessed." Yet, this depression prevails. I just want to be me again.........

[Obayan]

Hi. You found a great place to get help. Lots of really kind and caring people here. I'm sorry things are so hard for you right now. I'm glad you are getting help though. Have you spoken to your counselor about the symptoms you are having? It could be the meds.

[danadou]

So this title of this forum got my attention because my depression/anxiety disorder is creeping its ugly freak outs on me again. I have been coping very well, not on medicine unless as needed anti-anxiety meds, I exercise and and make a lot of me time for myself. I have the kind of symptoms where the smallest things can urk me, and creep under my skin for days. I was so fine, and past couple of days I have just been waking up feeling so moody and irritable! I think to myself, geez what could I possibly be upset about? It may be time to make an appointment with my psychologist, its been a quite a few weeks. Something might be bothering me that I keep pushing under the rug that I can't quite put my finger on yet, and don't want to face because I literally don't have the time. I would just love if people could stay out of my personal space right now and wish I could make them understand without feeling like I want to bite someone's head off. I am in one of the last few semesters of my BASW, and college is really burning me out, and some of my peers who get under my skin aren't speeding up the process. Any words of encouragement?!