A Bit of a Crash

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Postby crystalgaze » Sun Nov 21, 2010 10:52 am

~sigh~ I think.... I'm crashing again.... I know I will pick myself up off the ground, like always. Just as a precaution, I took my natural lithium today, which I hadn't needed to take in maybe close to a year or so. I also took my heart medicine.

I did manage to get my original room in the house clean. Not only that, I squeezed in a small end table! (1 thing less in the living room.....)

Well... I fear my cleaning will be for naught because some bad weather is supposed to be coming. I am going to try to continue onward, since I would like for the house to be cleaner.

It is trying on my nerves, though, because there is still so much left to do. If I don't push, it won't get done. It's a pain to have things not clean all at the same time.

What's left: the back porch, odds + ends, the back room, where I sleep, the kitchen, the dining area, the TV spot, & the mini library (which I'm calling that because 3 tall bookshelves are over there). The last 4 places I mentioned are all in the same one room, but we divided the space. There are 'projects' to do in each spot....

Whoops.... The rain is already here. Ta ta, it's time to go close the windows! :)

Edit: I feel a lil better now. The nap, the medicine, the natural lithium, & my lavender-vetiver oils on an aromastone helped a bundle.

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Postby crystalgaze » Wed Jun 08, 2011 4:15 pm

I feel like I'm breaking.... Gosh, it's happened so many times in 1 day already.... I'm not out yet..... Where's my PSP when I need it?!

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Postby crystalgaze » Sat Dec 03, 2011 7:18 am

I really crashed last month. Unfortunately, I attempted suicide one more time. The cause? My new anti-seizure medicine I started taking in July.

I have since stopped taking that drug, & I'm a whole lot better now.

Just for the record, it's been 2 attempted suicides while on 2 different anti-seizure drugs--the 1st being Trileptal and the most recent being Dilantin.

I am starting to really think that anti-seizure meds & I just don't agree.... (but I haven't tried them all) I think I'm too afraid to try any more!

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Postby Warmsoul/Jeanie13 » Sat Dec 03, 2011 11:35 am

(((((((((((((( crystalgaze ))))))))))))))))

I am very thankful you are all right and back. You have been missed. Please take extra good care of yourself, for all of us.

Warmie

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Postby crystalgaze » Sat Dec 03, 2011 2:51 pm

Thanks Warmie! I'm glad I'm okay too. :-)

I was suffering some bad side effects from the medicine (for the 2nd time).... It's unfortunate because I'm really not sure what to do for the random seizures I have. No one has ever actually diagnosed me with epilepsy anyway....

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Triggering Material

Postby crystalgaze » Sun Feb 10, 2013 2:57 pm

It's triggering material.

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Lately, I have been feeling suicidal.

I haven't really told anyone, & on the one day when it was really bad, when I said I felt I was getting "sick again" to someone I was close with, that person told me, "Your lying. I don't believe a word your saying."

Ah, well it happens.

I'm not going to fill my prescription medicine anymore for a while. I really don't take it often anyway and well, my doctor (the neurologist) was actually trying to kill me. :lol: He was going to prescribe 1 gram of my anti-seizure medicine and when I told another doctor about it, he said, "Maybe you would've gone to sleep and never woken up again."

At first I freaked out, but currently, if that can do the job, I have about 4x that right now. With the way I'm feeling, I think not filling my medication is a good idea. I decided that I would not do or think about anything now, until after a goal I'd like to complete.

Once I complete that goal which may take me a few years, I will see how I feel and if I feel the same way, I'll just see.

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Postby crystalgaze » Mon Apr 29, 2013 11:38 am

I crashed the other day--between feeling like a lot of people were kicking me and my Mom's cancer diagnosis.

I cried the other day. There was one day where like 3 people took their crap out on me. It was a little rough, but if it happens again, I will fix it. (I just hope I don't go off the deep end with it.)

Oh, also there is a scam happening on my island & I'm planning to throw a fit if they ever get me on the phone. :twisted: (They call people up, as though it's a reputable company and say something needs fixing and to do it, you'll have to pay XXXX dollars.)

Yeah, I know.... :roll:


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