Just a Little Worried

[crystalgaze]

I am feeling a tad worried about myself. I have been so reckless lately..... I wonder is it because I am not preoccupied with a job? I don't know.

The current recklessness reminds me of the time before my ideation (sp?) got the best of me. I wish I knew why it seems as though I can't control myself well enough. Both sets of recklessness were harmful to me.

I am a tad bummed out, fatigued, unmotivated, physically ill from the possible seizure condition--just not myself. If I had to described this feeling, it's like being in a weakened state. I got injured & the injury just is not healing fast enough.

Now that I've said it, I will try not to worry about it anymore & work towards the light more.

[Obayan]

I know when i have too much free time on my hands i tend to overthink things. Could that be what's happening now? Thinking too much and not acting enough? Not much you can do to speed up the healing process though. Maybe get a hobby that will occupy your mind while you are down? Hope it all works out hon.