Someone Please Help Me

[Jigzy]

I am 22 years old, I'm a female, and I live in The United States.
Okay so I decided to try this forum, because I found the link to this whole site from Yahoo Answers the other day. So I hope this forum will be of a lot of good help to me. I just hope this was the right thing to do and join this site and post in the forums. I hope that maybe there will be someone here who understands me and thats maybe going through the same feelings that I feel. I mean I thought it might had been a good idea to join a Christian/Anime type forum at first and I did that a couple of weeks ago, but I don't think they understand me there at all. They are just mainly into Anime and well I do like Anime thats one of my favorite Interests too, but I don't know I mean I don't exactly watch a whole lot of Anime like all the time, but there are a couple of good Animes that I like. Well really I am mainly more into Christian type things now and I want to focus more on God. They like to focus a lot on God there as well, but I don't think they understand about my problems, sadness, and depression. They don't understand about my nervousness and shyness. They are very nice and friendly though and they keep trying to welcome me there, they just don't understand me enough most likely. I guess I need to be in a forum where people have problems and things like this. Man I hope this site was a good idea to join and I hope that maybe I won't feel so left out here that's how I feel a lot of times. I feel like no one is going to like me, that I'm a stupid person, and that people are going to judge, and think I'm weird or something, or I'm always afraid I'm going to say the wrong things or say it in a wrong way. So I get scared to talk to people in real life and I'm very shy. So shy that it makes me very depressed with myself and that is why I am here so that maybe I might find someone here who would understand me. Does anyone understand me at all? I mean I've never been hurt or abused or anything like that in my life. I've always had a good life and a good family and they are all very good to me. Just for some reason I find it very hard to talk to people, afraid they won't like me or that they'll just think I'm stupid for what I say or how I say something. My heart starts racing and I just get very nervous at times. I wish I can find a very good friend here who could understand me about my problems. I want to find a very good Christian friend who will also understand me for my problems and that maybe they'll have similar problems such as mine. Really though I should not think so negative about myself, because I know that I am a very nice person and everyone on the Internet tells me that I am. I try not to ever give up on God though. I see where lots of people say why would God want them to suffer and why isn't he helping them? Well they are very wrong for saying that and I mean God is helping them. He is helping them to stay strong and testing their faith and if they'd believe more in God eventually he will help you. That's how I try to think of things even though I get very depressed. I tell myself that even though I keep feeling depressed a lot of times to never give up on God, because just maybe soon he'll let something good happen soon and that I'll get better, so for now I am just trying to believe in him as much as I can and thinking that maybe they'll be someone here like me who goes through the same problems as I do. I tried to go to a therapists, but felt very uncomfortable to talk to her and I just feel better being behind a computer screen chatting with people instead and maybe I could find a good Christian friend here who understands my problems. I really need a best friend right now though I really do, someone who can make me feel really comfortable. If this isn't the type of place to make very good friends like that then please tell me where I could go online to find some more people. Someone just please help. I'm a bit shy and nervous online too and yes it is very possible for someone to feel that way online too. I just want there be a friend online who will accept me for who I am and about my problems and someone who can help me keep a conversation, because I always have trouble keeping conversations. But please I really need someones help right now. I need a very good friend to chat with. I'm a nice person. So I think you'll enjoy chatting with me. Someone please be my friend.

[Warmsoul/Jeanie13]

Hello Jigzy,

Welcome to the forums. People are caring and do type here. If you are looking for others to talk with please give our Depression Chat Room, that is connected with this forum.

Always people in there, caring and supportive chatters that might be what you need.

Hope you go in and give it a try.

Warmie

[Jigzy]

Yes, I did go into the Chat Room, but I kind of felt like I didn't fit in much there and I felt a little left out. So I came here to check out the forums.

[jj]

welcome to the forums / chat room jigzy.

first off , you dont have to have been through some traumatic event to be suffering depression, it can happen to anyone, at anytime.

I think loneliness and just needing a friend or someone to talk to, is a big factor in regards to depression. i know for me personally i am much better when i am around people than when i am on my own- hate my own company! I think coming here and the chat room is a good starting point for you to start addressing your issues, and to find people that care and understand and can relate to what youre going through.

also its great that you have something to believe in, something you can turn to when you need to, sounds like youve got a good support system going already with your faith in god.

have you ever considered talking to your family about how you feel? i think alot of it is self-esteem problems- you say youre very shy and get very nervous. have you ever tried affirmations? tell yourself everyday something positive about yourself even if you dont believe it. it can work after a while if you stick with it.

have you been to the doctor about your anxiety and nervousness? there are a lot of medicines out there that can help for that, and that may make talking to people easier for you, as at least the butterflies and speedy heartrate may be lessened.

hope some of this is helpful

do come back into the chatroom, people really are friendly and nice there.

jj

[Jigzy]

welcome to the forums / chat room jigzy.

first off , you dont have to have been through some traumatic event to be suffering depression, it can happen to anyone, at anytime.

I think loneliness and just needing a friend or someone to talk to, is a big factor in regards to depression. i know for me personally i am much better when i am around people than when i am on my own- hate my own company! I think coming here and the chat room is a good starting point for you to start addressing your issues, and to find people that care and understand and can relate to what youre going through.

also its great that you have something to believe in, something you can turn to when you need to, sounds like youve got a good support system going already with your faith in god.

have you ever considered talking to your family about how you feel? i think alot of it is self-esteem problems- you say youre very shy and get very nervous. have you ever tried affirmations? tell yourself everyday something positive about yourself even if you dont believe it. it can work after a while if you stick with it.

have you been to the doctor about your anxiety and nervousness? there are a lot of medicines out there that can help for that, and that may make talking to people easier for you, as at least the butterflies and speedy heartrate may be lessened.

hope some of this is helpful

do come back into the chatroom, people really are friendly and nice there.

jj

All of my life I've just had this problem of being so shy and nervous around people. I keep believing that if I were to try and talk to someone like in real life that they would just end up thinking I was really weird or something. And what if I get stuck and freeze up? Because that usually happens when I try and talk to someone. And what if I act nervous? And what if I can't help it and someone sees me act that way? I am just afraid I am going to mess up and they'll think I'm even more weirder. But I really need a good friend here who'll understand me and hoping that someone will and because right now I feel a feeling of feeling very lonely and left out around people. Not my family though they're always good to me and there for me when I need them. So there is really no reason for me to feel like that at all, because I have such a great family and you'd wonder why I feel this way, but I just do get so sad and depressed. I mean I wonder what is ever going to become of me in the future if I never get better of this and these ways that I am just holds me back from a lot of things and I want to be able to make friends and be social with people, but it's just so hard and I just feel like I am missing out on so much because of the way I am. I know that I have really low self esteem and thats the problem too. A lot of times I just feel like I am going to cry. Like I said I've been to a therapist before but, I was too scared and afraid to talk to her and I felt very uncomfortable. I only seen her once and never went to go and see her again. Also she said that I had Anixety disorder and gave me some medicines, but they didn't really help at all. But I always believe in God and never give up on him. He'll always be there for me to help give me strength to keep going on and on even though I do get depressed a lot, but I will always never give up on him.

[forgiven]

Jigzy,you such a young man and I can feel your pain,honestly you are young enough to be my Son,I have just recently joined this forum and like you I have hopes in being able to reach out,I too am a follower of Christ,however I know when I'm at Church or at a mens group I put on my Church face,I have read of others who have done this and like you I really don't have many friends,I don't seem to allow myself to get close to anyone,I guess this is a defense for not getting hurt.
Please,feel free to PM me if you would like,I wished I had reached out years ago,perhaps my Life in some ways would be different,you will be in my prayers.

[Jigzy]

Jigzy,you such a young man and I can feel your pain,honestly you are young enough to be my Son,I have just recently joined this forum and like you I have hopes in being able to reach out,I too am a follower of Christ,however I know when I'm at Church or at a mens group I put on my Church face,I have read of others who have done this and like you I really don't have many friends,I don't seem to allow myself to get close to anyone,I guess this is a defense for not getting hurt.
Please,feel free to PM me if you would like,I wished I had reached out years ago,perhaps my Life in some ways would be different,you will be in my prayers.

You made a mistake. I'm a female. I'm not a man.

[Obayan]

Hi forgiven. I'm sorry you have had so much pain at such a young age. Please give the chat room another chance. Sometimes it takes a while to get into the flow of how things go there. And I realise it can get busy and comments overlooked, but we really do try to help and listen.