Emotionless and Mute

[MelloYello]

For the past several months, many of the people who encounter me have been describing me as emotionless. I have noticed that I don't feel love, happiness, and I don't care about anyone or anything. The only emotion I can distinctly feel is anger. I'm somewhat emotional in school, but when I get home, I shut down and I'm always speaking in a monotone voice.
Also, I have been speaking less, for the reason that I simply have nothing to say. My dad and teachers have been concerned, but I disregard them. The only time I speak is if it is absolutely necessary.
I'm not too sure if I even want to do anything about this, but I feel like I should mention this, and I know my family and friends wouldn't understand.

[crystalgaze]

Hey MelloYello! Yeah, I'm sort of like that too.

Now, here's what I will say to you, in that regard: Be careful with the anger. The consequence of my anger (& I'm speaking for myself) has been a physical health issue.

I really don't talk much anymore, but you know what? It doesn't bother me. Sometimes, when the conversation is interesting enough & I feel comfortable, I may talk. Other times, I don't feel it is worth my time. Like you said, sometimes I'm just blank. I'd much rather keep my mouth shut than make a fool of myself or simply just conserve my energy.

Here is the only place where I really 'talk'.

I don't feel love per se either. (That one is complicated, though.)

I think I have been able to be 'happy' because I am hyper. Part of it is my attitude also. Another part of it is my personality. I am still just a kid at heart & get excited over little things--probably because I was robbed a lot of my 'happy times' when I was younger.

The question I have for you is: Are you suicidal/homicidal? Is your mood affecting your grades? Do you feel overwhelmed? I would worry.... but also I would start working on trying to change it. (Start practicing habits you want to adopt & in time, you may very well kick your old habits or not do them as much.)

Maybe time will make things clear. Keep watching yourself, though, & if you feel bad, maybe you could see your counselor. (You say you feel overwhelmed & ask if he/she knows any strategies/wisdom for coping better with it.)

Take care! You can do it! ((((((((((( Mello )))))))))))))

[MelloYello]

I am a bit suicidal, but I haven't contemplated anything in months. While I hate people, I have never thought about killing someone. And actually, because I'm detached from my emotions, I'm fairly logical and my grades are the highest they've ever been, of course this could also stem from my inferiority complex and my dislike of being second in anything. I don't feel overwhelmed, but I fear that in time I may start to feel overwhelmed.

[Warmsoul/Jeanie13]

(((((((((((((( MelloYello )))))))))))))))))

At moments like that, I try my best to keep busy, I seek something I enjoy, reading, being on computer, and even cleaning and cooking. This works for me, for I am doing something I enjoy, keeps my mind busy and gets me through some rough spots.

Do what is right for you, but know we are here so you can vent to us all you want. Believe it or not, it does help.

Warmie