He cheated on me 5 yrs ago. I can't let the pain go and I can't let him go. I love him too much and I know he loves me and I know that he is sorry for what he did.
I was trying to talk to him tonight..but there is no good time to talk to him. its either, i'm busy on the computer...or Argh! why now, I'm sleeping. I tell him all my emotions and all he can think about is sleep. He tells me I think too much..I probably am..but I just need to talk. I just need someone to talk to.
I wish that he would just leave me because I feel like an emotional wreck and I'm too crazy for him. he's a great guy for putting up with my mood swings..He's a flirt and I get soooo upset. But I never felt this way until he cheated on me. He's been that way before we got married. I don't know...my emotions are just off the charts. I feel like running away from him..I only make it to the door and then I turn around. i can't bear to lose him either. There is something about him...he's just so lovely...but I everytime I need to talk about my wacky hormonal emotions, he never has time and then I go crazy on him. *Sigh* I find myself very lazy lately..I don't want to go to work..I just want to sleep all day. I just want to be alone...I'm not taking any antideppresants. I'm assuming that this is due to my period...well...its been almost a week since my period ended. My emotions were fine during my period..this week is just hell for me...I gave my hubby a lot of crap tonight...I'm afraid..he's had enough. I just can't sleep.