not knowing

[About.done]

every day/week gets more confusing and more of a struggle getting bounced from one specialist/therapist to another never getting any real answers or help... is it always like this? or do they catch up?
its always seemed my whole life that i have been the only person on this planet and now today it feels like everyone else was always here they was just staying away from me..
its taken me a long long time to attempt to get help for the way i feel and it seems i have started a journey.. i'm not gonna lie i am scared and feel more alone then ever..
Night is the time i feel most vulnerable to my "demon"(i have seen it called this by others can i call it this?)
there is something about the darkness that brings it out more. sleep isnt something i look forward to... every night seems worse then the last
my brain is going overtime all the things i am reading up on about the way i think and feel and react. i think reading up on it all was a bad idea as now i am making myself even more paranoid filling my head with what ifs and how comes but mainly WHY???
i'm not expecting answers i just need to try unload some of it before my brain fills up

Ray

[crystalgaze]

With the specialist/therapist part, I have had something similar happen (that bounced around feeling).....

I read this quote yesterday & it really helped me lots.... (Don't know if it will do the same...._
http://depression-understood.org/forum/ ... highlight=

(((Ray)))) In the beginning, I panicked/freaked out as well about different things.... I don't know exactly what you're facing....

Hang in there, alright? & soon, you may not be just hanging on but standing & countering whatever it is.....

Take care. I just wanted you to know I did read your post.

[Mich]

I am glad you have started the journey towards getting help. It can be daunting and scary at times....just take it one step at a time. I wish you well.

[xn728]

were all on the journey ,look behind you ,all weve come so far and can only become stronger ,i see that in all your posts ken xn728