Turned Away

[windsong]

Turned Away
Everyone I loved turned away
Couldn't bring myself to stay
My heart torn in tiny shreds
As I started on this path I now tread
Alone, with nothing but my own thoughts
This is the result a moment of truth brought
Everyone else turned away
Like it was some sardonic play
Used to be surrounded by people I thought cared
But when I needed them most they wasn't there
A few said I was disowned
So I set out on a path alone
Now they dare to enter my life
Make little of my strife
There was words I longed to hear back then
I would of gave anything to take comfort in
You say the words now not realizing its to late
My life is already sealed by fate
You now say I am one of your own
But truth is I'd rather be left alone
The love you give now I choose not to accept
Tell me do you feel bereft
Would it make any difference to you
If I washed my hands and said I was through
For the past five years to most I didn't even exist
Isn't funny how fate loves to toss in twists
The thing is in spite of how much you say you care
I remember the time you wasn't there
This love you say you now feel
I doubt very much is real
And even if it is
For so long I've done without this
And I wont risk being hurt again
Because who's to say the future would be different from then
Whose to say that you wouldn't once again turn away
Leaving me alone again to face another day
And in my heart of hearts I know
That I still love you but I cant bear to let it show
And no matter how much I need you
I know what I must do
Finally say goodbye to the past
Love fades but hurts seem to last
And forgive me if I don't believe what you say
This time I am the one who turned away