Today, tomorrow the next day.

[Dedee23]

Today:
An overwhelming feeling to disappear, stupidly sharing confidential information in order to be liked, quickened heart beat, sweaty palms, a 44 minute run, a 6 mile walk, dread for the return to work tomorrow, physical pain to numb the mind and a pathetic voice note to a friend, met with love and criticism. An overwhelming feeling to disappear.

Tomorrow:
Dread and fear regarding the return to work. Feeling physically sick and unsure of what is going to happen. I’ve never felt this way about the return to work. Trying to think of excuses not to return, can I call in sick?

The next day:
Will I feel differently?
Is it worth putting myself through the rest of today and tomorrow to get to the day after?
Will my overactive mind be silenced?
Will I ever learn?

[Tealeaves]

Hello I'm Tealeaves
... I'm here
...today, tomorrow and the next day...