In the worst mood going!!!!
Want to scream so so loud that everyone in this unit can hear how distressed and how pissed off I really am right now.
I can't stop crying,
I feel so worthless.
Getting flashbacks!!! Just GO AWAY!!! I am going mental!!!!
Vent... (Triggering)
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CrazyLady17
YELLING IS GOOD FOR THE MIND AND HEART
In your position, at a similar age (60 years back) I took out my trials and tribulations on every member of the staff until I came to grips with who I had become. The staff felt I was too much but I needed to express myself openly and honestly or I would internalize it all and it was all the f...ing internalizing that put me where I was.
Let the stars hear your frustration so you can understand them! Lots of luck.
Let the stars hear your frustration so you can understand them! Lots of luck.
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FearfullyMade
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- Location: South Africa
Lost
I must admit that I'm pretty new here so this is just something I'm not familar with, but I must say that I really like how much freedom there is to just express oneself.
Part of me want so laugh and cry... Laugh because I feel a sense of relief knowing that I'm not the only person who feels like a complete freak. I know that I'm awkward. I used to make so many friends in the past. My one friend even made an interesting remark saying he wished he could make friends the way that I could because I just seemed to have a knack for choosing the right folks. I have no idea how that's changed.
Omw I just say weird things or something. So embarrassing. And I don't trust people even when they're being nice. I just can't.
I don't know how I ruined my life so much. It hurts so much. The guys that want to to be with me just want to sleep with me and leave me, or the guys are in a committed relationship.
Feel like such a freak... And to be honest am the joke of the neighbourhood. Everyone wants to know what the "slut" (that's me) is like because no one get's how I person can end up like me: as trash.
Hurts like hell.
At first, it was just rumours but I ended up becoming exactly what everyone said I'd become: a slut.
Hurts so much.
#i wonder if this is too lame to post
Sorry if I wasted your time
Part of me want so laugh and cry... Laugh because I feel a sense of relief knowing that I'm not the only person who feels like a complete freak. I know that I'm awkward. I used to make so many friends in the past. My one friend even made an interesting remark saying he wished he could make friends the way that I could because I just seemed to have a knack for choosing the right folks. I have no idea how that's changed.
Omw I just say weird things or something. So embarrassing. And I don't trust people even when they're being nice. I just can't.
I don't know how I ruined my life so much. It hurts so much. The guys that want to to be with me just want to sleep with me and leave me, or the guys are in a committed relationship.
Feel like such a freak... And to be honest am the joke of the neighbourhood. Everyone wants to know what the "slut" (that's me) is like because no one get's how I person can end up like me: as trash.
Hurts like hell.
At first, it was just rumours but I ended up becoming exactly what everyone said I'd become: a slut.
Hurts so much.
#i wonder if this is too lame to post
Sorry if I wasted your time
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