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4EverMe
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Postby 4EverMe » Tue Aug 20, 2013 7:33 pm

Hi there!
You were away for just a short time, but already I missed ya! Good to have you back. :) If I didn't hear from you today, I was gonna pm you to see if you were okay. Yes- I care about you, and how you're doing!

saragupta
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:)

Postby saragupta » Wed Aug 21, 2013 2:57 am

Hello everyone!
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hey hi

Postby saragupta » Wed Aug 21, 2013 2:58 am

Thank u for such caring and friendly gesture of yours. But please don't make me to think that u think that i am a very nice and adorable person. Please . Because i am not.
But still i really liked it while reading ur reply. To Hell with Sara, who lost u because she is mental...i don't know...but that's what i guessed from Wat u told here on forum. Yes, i am okay. Thank u, 4everme!

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Postby Frame » Wed Aug 21, 2013 7:02 am

Where ever, in one's life, we're at here Saragupta, what ever our level of self expression, or what our goals are; we all have admirable qualities. Our weaknesses are strengths. Even death and rust and mountains of garbage can be beautiful. So you can't escape that one day perhaps you'll find someone adores you. You should get ready. We need to give ourselves the benefit of the doubt.
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Postby 4EverMe » Wed Aug 21, 2013 2:42 pm

Whatever is it I said on the forums that has you upset? I don't know what you're talking about. (??) You seem upset. And I'm confused.

Please don't tell ME what I DON'T think of you as a person. I DO like you, and you ARE appreciated. Therefore, I did miss u while u were gone. But I didn't use the word 'adorable.' If I'm remembering right, I may have thought that something you wrote was 'cute.' You said above that it made you feel good--the msg I left you while u were gone. If ur implying that I said nice things that I didn't even mean...Why would I do that?! This would make me a liar who is also wasting my time by playing games. Neither are true.

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Postby Frame » Wed Aug 21, 2013 3:17 pm

Um, who are you replying to 4Ever?

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Postby 4EverMe » Wed Aug 21, 2013 3:41 pm

Heehee...I'm sorry, Frame! I was responding to saragupta.

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Postby 4EverMe » Wed Aug 21, 2013 4:41 pm

Hi Saragupta,
Did I take what you said and 'run with it?' Maybe you didn't quite mean what you said in the way it came across...I don't know. But if I seem to be angry, I'm not. I reread my OWN msg; Perhaps, I also come across in a way I don't intend! If so, I apologize. Hope everything's going okay with you. :)

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Postby saragupta » Thu Aug 22, 2013 9:14 am

I am really sorry, if i have hurt u 4everme. But trust me, i had no intentions to hurt u. Never had, never will.
I have never thought that u r lying to me or u r saying words which u don't mean.
Never. In fact i have always found u so warm natured and true at heart. And that's the reason i said in my reply that "To Hell with Sara who lost u as a friend."
And that's the reason why i have been trying to come up with all possible ideas, to help u with ur court case...then why wud i think about u so negatively.

But now u myt be thinking  then why i dint respond positively to ur so sweet msg!
It's totally my fault. Actually, since childhood whenever i made friends i lost them...some, because of my own circumstances in my personal life and some, just abandoned me....left me behind with a wounded heart, thinking what went wrong...!

So now...since last few years...i have become a person who makes friends very fast...who always tries to help them...but never get too much close and never get too much attached.
Because now...whenever i feel like someone is getting nice to me...i feel like taking a step backwards...this way sometimes i unintentionally confuse the other person but....
On this website, where everyone is trying to keep aside their own problems so that they cud support others...i am here, acting abruptly weird.

And 4everme, u were so right in ur msg when u said that u think i am upset.
First my exam went very bad. Then on the day of festival my relatives (who are alwz proud of me coz i am a doctor) started saying hello doctor how r u! That's not a big thing, i know. But after having gone thru a bad exam i was feeling like i should not be called or addressed as a DOCTOR anymore!
Second, Indian govt has made new new rules (and announced on 17th) ie:-- all those medical students who wants to appear for entrance exam for post graduation or MD courses, will have to do one year job in any village area. There are many entrance exams in India. This rule applies to half of them. Before doing job i wud not be eligible to sit in entrance exam. That means one year delay in getting a seat of post graduation.

Whatever May be the reasons were, i have NO Ryt to respond someone's sweet msg like that... am sorry.
hope u will understand.

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hello

Postby saragupta » Thu Aug 22, 2013 9:30 am

Hello frame sir,
it's really nice to hear from u after such a long time.
How are u!
Ur reply was like a moral msg to me! I have understood its meaning. And wen u said that i can't escape...someday i will get a person who will adore me (not exact words) these words made me smile a little bit. Hahaha.
Thank u.
Although such kind of hopes make me to feel hopeful and dreamy a little bit,..but then the very next moment i start convincing myself that "no no no, u will never be the one for someone, that kind of love and friendships exist only in tv serial, movies and motels like twilight. Not in real life. So don't let urself see dreams like that. Otherwise, u will be hurt later."
I know i am complicated. And shld not be like this but trust me i am trying to be sane.

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Postby saragupta » Thu Aug 22, 2013 9:44 am

That's not MOTEL...i wanted to write NOVEL. But because i am using T9 dictionary mode of typing in my cell so this kind of mistakes often happens.

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Postby 4EverMe » Thu Aug 22, 2013 10:32 am

Awww, Sara!
Thankyou for that sweet msg and all the nice things you said about me. That touched my heart. Of course you'd never lost me as your friend! Have I not been joking and laughing with you about crazy & humorous things? (heh he he ha heeeay he haha)! I don't think there's anyone else here I can let loose with in such a silly way. :) I've also considered you as good-natured with a kind and caring heart. You try to be there for others, and have been here for me, for sure. So thankyou, friend.
I understand what you mean about fearing to get to close to anyone. Myself? I have been there too. In those times, I can be my own worst enemy. I fear getting hurt later, when it may never have happened! It leaves others hurt and bewildered, like...What have I done. As of lately, I know I need to work on my deep-seated trust issues. It will be okay. And please don't tell yourself that love is in the novels/movies and could never happen to you. I wonder how many happily married people once said this to themselves.

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Postby 4EverMe » Thu Aug 22, 2013 11:03 am

And for humor, I have to say that in today's economic struggle, everyone needs a spouse who's a doctor! Haha. You know I'm being silly! One day, when you least expect, you'll meet 'that someone.' But when you do? Do yourself a favor and don't start walking backwards! That is my prescribed medicine for YOU! :) Also, if this man likes humor, put his dog infront of a mirror for him so that he can get his giggles on. OMGsh, speaking of dogs?
I'm watching the news right now and they're talking about how in Detroit, there are 50,000 dogs running wild, without owners. Many of them are forming packs and even attacking people! Detroit went bankrupt. People left their dogs behind or cut em loose because they couldn't afford to care for em. Many are pit bulls, because Detroit has been a popular place for dog-fighting! (Jerks) Uh...You won't find me walking down any streets THERE! (unless I'm endowed with assault rifles)--and a bag of dog food! LOL! Maybe a large mirror??
It will be ok later on exams! Do not lose hope!

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Postby saragupta » Thu Aug 22, 2013 2:48 pm

Oh my god!
4everme, u have relieved me by such a sweet and humorous msg or yours. I am too much sometimes.
I take it as a compliment that u felt so loosened up and comfortable while sharing and discussing things with me.
You explained everything about my fears so to the point...specially when u said "in those times i can be my own worst enemy...leaves others hurt and bewildered like..what have i done..!....deep seated trust issues.".

Yes, i do have fears. Fears about that that i May hurt people just to maintain the required distance between me and them...because i dear that if i get close to them then something surely will go wrong and then i will be considered mischievous and and many others things....So it's better not to bid rather than to lose everything.
I think this way. I know life doesn't go this way. May be this forum will treat me. Ha ha ha.

And ya!
I assure u that your PRESCRIPTION Will be kept Safely like a treasure! Thank u :)
I don't know about his giggles but right now i am literally laughing imagining the whole crazy scene. Ha heh ha ha.

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Postby 4EverMe » Thu Aug 22, 2013 6:05 pm

Oh good, Sara!
I'm glad I could help and that you will hold onto that 'prescription'. Also, it's one you can share with others without getting yourself into trouble. Haha!

I'm happy you had yourself a good laugh over that 'mental imagery' too. Yeah, I was throwing some humor out there, but what I told you about the 50,000 dogs running loose in Detroit is TRUE. That kind of freaks me out to ponder how ugly things could get! They even had to stop mail service there for a while. These dogs are also mating and having more dogs. Because the area went bankrupt, many people moved away, leaving behind empty neighborhoods. Some of the dogs have taken up residence in the vacant homes. OMGsh! I'm sorry to also use your page for my 'news flash.' What am I doing?!

Just so u know? I felt kind of LED in writing to u what I wrote earlier. Sounds odd- I know! But the very things u brought up, (plus one more) I already knew after typing them, they'd affect u in a positive way. But if I'm led at all, I am only His conduit!


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