I sit

[inrecovery2011]

Today fear and confusion reign
Who do I share these fears with
How do I get out of the thoughts if they are true my life is over
Just wanting to know and needing peace of mind leaves me to question my whole life
Would I be accepting
Would I be willing to change my life
I want the question answered but the fear makes me sick
Waiting is so hard to do thinking constantly has me unable to focus
Do I care if I fail my class in some ways yes in others I don’t
My head is swimming with thoughts and putting them aside to study not going to happen
Nothing I can do now but try to get my mind occupied
I long for one of the people I can talk to
I need an outlet for this fear a person who I can tell how and why I feel it but for now I sit
I sit with the fears the thoughts oh why can’t my life be the fairytale with a prince charming to come rescue me

[Ste]

Thoughts are a damaging thing. Much of the time they warp reality and are false.
Always try to keep good thoughts stored to nuetralise the bad ones.