How Was Christmas for you?

[Tigger]

Posted: Sun Dec 25, 2005 3:43 pm

Hi,
I know when you have depression, Christmas can be a really hard time of the year. How did you find Christmas day/the holiday season?

My day wasn't too bad, though I was kind of bored, and as usual I've come home with the kind of "anti climax" feeling. I also had just one glass of alcohol, but it really doesn't do my mood any good. I did enjoy it though. I feel kinda blah and tired now.

I think its this time of year when I most feel my "singleness". I want my own family, someone I naturally am supposed to be with on Christmas day, kids of my own, a husband, instead of feeling like I get invited as a charity case! Thats not really true, and I really like my friends, but this year I went to her parents (with my friend, her husband and their two kids). To be honest, sometimes I'd be "happier" (though wrong word, cause I'd feel miserable if it ever really did happen!) to be allowed to stay home alone in my nice cosy flat and let Christmas happen without me.

I also lost my grandad last year, on Christmas day, and there have been memories about that too, so its not been the greatest (but not the worst either!) how did everyone else get on?

Tigger
xxxxxxx

[Stephen]

Posted: Tue Dec 27, 2005 5:26 pm

Think I'm going through that anti-climax stage now that Boxing Day (26th December, a "second sort of" Christmas day here in the UK) is also over.

I can identify with a lot of what Tigger said. I really missed having that "Special someone" with me at Christmas. Such is life. Maybe next year.

Oddly enough I also lost a grandparent last year (two days before Christmas), and so my memories naturally led in that direction at this time of year too.

Not going to moan (anymore!), just find this the hardest time of year, and finally when New Year's Eve is over, things will be back to a sense of "normality". Think I'm going to learn from past experiences of New Year's Eves and stay in, just would rather give it a miss, and attempt to look forward and not back.

How are others getting on at this time of year?

Stephen.

[LThomas]

Posted: Tue Dec 27, 2005 8:11 pm

*bleh*

just the new year's eve thingy to go now.

xxx Lisa xxx

[Warmsoul/Jeanie13]

Posted: Tue Dec 27, 2005 8:15 pm

(((((((((((((((((((Tigger, Stephen))))))))))))))))))))

My first Christmas without my Mother. It hurts so deeply............. also a year now, a year!!

(((((((((((((((Lisa)))))))))))))))))

Yes, just one more holiday to face, going to hide and just let it come and go. Best thing to do for me.

Love to all of you

Warmie

[LThomas]

Posted: Tue Dec 27, 2005 8:18 pm

aww .. ((((warmie)))))

sorry to hear about warmiemom hun

xxx Lisa xxx

[jellybean]

Posted: Tue Dec 27, 2005 10:18 pm

(((((((((((((((((((( Tiggerish ))))))))))))))))) ((((((((((((((((((( stephen )))))))))))))))))))
((((((((((((((((((((( warmie ))))))))))))))))) ((((((((((((((((((( lisa )))))))))))))))))))

Xmas for me was a day when I got out of bed and immediatly knew that I was not able to pretend to be part of a the facade of a happy normal family so I refused to put myself thru the stress of doing that so I cancelled all my xmas day plans and made myself a sandwich and took a new book I bought myself into bed and stayed snuggled in bed with my lil dog and really enjoyed my stress free xmas day

[Tigger]

Posted: Wed Dec 28, 2005 5:17 am

Thanks for all the replies guys, I was trying not to get paranoid about being ignored!!! Just decided everyone else was having TOO much fun!

(((((((((((((((((Stephen))))))))))))))))))))) yeah the singleness issue is kinda hard isn't it? Most of the year I don't really mind that much, infact I enjoy my own space and independance, its just at Christmas when somehow you are SUPPOSED to be with family it feels worse. Sorry to hear about your grandparent too.

((((((((((((((((Lisa)))))))))))))))))))))))))))

(((((((((((((((((Warmsoul))))))))))))))))))) I think Christmas marks years out too somehow, as in "this time last year, this time two years ago" etc etc. Must have been hard without your mom.

((((((((((((((((Jellybean)))))))))))))))))))) sounds like a GRAND idea to me! Well done for doing what you needed to do.

Often I don't mind new years eve. I guess thats because its more a "party" thing, not families together, but many friends, and I always have somewhere to go then. This time next week it will all be over though for another year!

Love
Tigger
xxxxxxxxx

[Stephen]

Posted: Wed Dec 28, 2005 5:10 pm

(((((((((Warmie))))))) I'm so sorry that this was your 1st Christmas without your mum. And there was me waffling on. I'm humbled.


(((((((Jellybean))))) Yeah, it was a façade here on my behalf. Tried to put a false smile on my face etc. ’Tis so hard to do sometimes. Wished I'd adopted your approach… sounds a lot more enjoyable. Perfect!


((((((((Lisa)))))) Yep, New Year yet to go. Hate all the looking back I know I'll do without being able to stop it. Soon be over, I hope.


((((((((Tigger))))))) No need to get paranoid lol! Too much energy spent here on "the façade" rather than having "fun" to be online. And yes, certainly, Christmas without being with that "Special One"/family compounds things (well it does for me). Live in hope etc.


Wow, I've written an essay. Anyone still awake?



Stephen.

[Tigger]

Posted: Thu Dec 29, 2005 10:25 am

LOL stephen!

Yeah, why do we use all that energy every year pretending to be ok? I've had a headache ever since! I'm sure its too many people, and not enough time alone

Tigger
xxxxxxx

[Warmsoul/Jeanie13]

Posted: Thu Dec 29, 2005 6:49 pm

(((((((((((((Lisa)))))))))))))))))))))

It is hard, but our life goes on and we learn to live our lives just a little different. Thank you for caring.

(((((((((((((((((Jellybean))))))))))))))

Think you got it right and maybe the next time I will borrow your book and idea. If I may.

((((((((((((((((((Tigger))))))))))))))))))))))))

Yes it seems to keep happening in my life, so thinking positive here, 2006 will be different, it will be good. As always I know I have you dear friend, right beside me, thank you for doing this for me.

(((((((((((((((((((Stephen))))))))))))))))))))

Sweet person, you weren't waffling on, you were expressing your feelings, hurt and pain. We all have this and you best know, I am with you all the way. Together we can make it, please remember that.

What wonderful friends you all are to me, how did I get so lucky to be blessed in this manner. All I can say is "thank you".............

Love to all of you

Warmie

[Stephen]

Posted: Sat Dec 31, 2005 8:31 am

((((((((((all))))))))))

Glad to see I didn't put everyone to sleep!

I echo Warmie's sentiments, and so won't laboriously repeat them.

Just thought I'd pop in and wish everyone a Happy New Year.

Yeaaaaaah, 2006! (Fake enthusiasm... what a cheery chap I am!) Suppose it could be a good year - bottle half full and all that.

Wishing you all well,

Stephen.

[jellybean]

Posted: Mon Jan 02, 2006 10:44 am

(((((((((((((((((((( Tiggerish ))))))))))))))))) ((((((((((((((((((( stephen )))))))))))))))))))
((((((((((((((((((((( warmie ))))))))))))))))) ((((((((((((((((((( lisa )))))))))))))))))))
(((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((( all forum users ))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))

I just wanted to wish you all a happy and prosperous new Year[b][/img]

[Corey]

Posted: Mon Jan 02, 2006 4:39 pm

my christmas was good but busy. running here and there and everywhere else but i survived it. i even managed to survive New Year's eve but New Year's day was something else.

[Tigger]

Posted: Mon Jan 02, 2006 5:04 pm

(((((((((((((((((((((((((Corey)))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))
glad you had a good christmas, even if it was rather busy. Wanna tell us what happened new years day?

Tigger
xxxxxxx

[Stephen]

Posted: Mon Jan 02, 2006 8:08 pm

Thanks for the Happy New Year jellybean, same back to you.

I'm with Tigger, and without sounding nosy (I hope... ignore me if I am), what happened on New Year's day Corey? Hope it wasn't too bad.

Stephen.