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As I sit here thinking I have come up with a plan that seems so nice. It's scary though that I can think about this and it seems like a good descison and it seems like the best solution. I've come up with the idea that when I graduate if I'm still this lonely that I don't want to live anymore. Life seems so pointless I have nothing to live for and nothing to look forward to. I don't want to wake up everyday just to eat, work, sleep and repeat. I mean yea I have friends but how many of them truely care? They tell me they're always there for me but when I need someone there's no one. Maybe it's due to the fact that I've built a wall that not even I seem to be able to break through. That's why I can't get close to anyone without beating myself up about it. I guess I'm meant to be alone but I don't want to be. Guess I'll just end it all when I move out.

Catcat, please talk to a counselor or call a hotline. You need help sweetie. There is so much in life to live for. You never know what fate is going to bring your way. Please get some help.

((((((( Catcat )))))))))))

Words of wisdom from Obayan. There are things in life worth waiting for you. Don't close any doors, please talk to those professional that can give you help.

Warmie

Ah I'm sorry I wrote this on one of my bad days. I feel like that alot but I can't talk to a cousillor because all the ones at my school I really don't like. I've talked to then before. As for a hotline isn't that when you're about to kill yourself? The idea that I had isn't going to take place for a few years since I'm only 16 now and maybe,even though I doubt it, things will get better? I don't know but anyway I also heard that when you're not an adult and you call that they tell you're parents. My parents aren't ever allowed to know because I know for a fact they won't do anything.

The fact that you have a plan and a date for when to execute that plan tells me that you need help right now. Please talk to someone. A teacher you trust, a school counselor, someone. You can always ask up front whether or not it's confidential.

(((( Catcat )))), I sooooooo agree with (((( Obayan )))) and (((( Warmie ))))! Please, please, please talk to someone that you trust about how you feel.
And, as (((( Obayan )))) said, you are 16, you really don't know what good life may have in store for you. You really do never know how things might turn out for the best.
Eg: Australia has a new Prime Minister, a Welsh-born woman whose parents left Wales because they felt Australia would be healthier as a climate for their baby.
When the baby Julia Gillard was in an oxygen tent in a Welsh hospital in 1961 with a severe lung infection, I can only imagine how desperate her parents must have felt. Could they possibly have imagined how well things would turn out? That their baby girl would not only survive, and thrive, but that her illness would be the catalyst for a move to Austalia, that would see eventually see their daughter become Prime Minister of Australia in forty years or so?
You never know what good things may be in store for you, please don't resign yourself to loneliness!

((( tracking ))) and ((( cat cat ))))

oh, ((( ))) <---- hugs

When all things seem dismal good can come from it. We have a grandson who was born less than two years ago with a heart defect. Two weeks later he had open heart surgery. Imagine that surgery on a heart smaller than a quarter. We thought it was over. We were all depressed and thought no one understood. Yet we found a world out there that understood. And you know what,.., at almost 2 years old, he is just like any other two year old dancing, singing and bringing joy to others. There is always hope. Always something better to come.

((((((((( pablos ))))))))))

I too know a child that had heart surgery at about 3 pounds, and one day old. That child is 9 now, smart as a tack, going into 4th grade, doing 7th grade work. Reading before 5 years and lovable as can be.

You are right, good does manage to show at the most usual times, never give up, never say never.

Warmie