When the people shall have nothing more to eat, they will eat the rich.

[Feelingsareweird2]

I'm really hungry. I didn't eat anything solid for two whole days because I couldn't keep any of the food down. When I came out of the hospital, I had to eat this watery soup thing.

I'm hungry now. It's been a day. And my mom asked if I wanted her to buy me food, but she doesn't have a lot of money. For that reason, I said no. I don't want to make things harder for her. But when I said no, she seemed very relieved. I think it's because she didn't want to spend money she didn't have.

But that made me more sad. Im hungry. And my parents don't have the money to feed me right now, except, the things I've been eating for months. I think that maybe I'm too spoiled, too ungrateful. I took my pills and drank some water. And that's it.

But I feel angry. And sad. And embarrassed.

I'm 18, and I don't even have a job. I can't buy groceries or anything. This sucks. And I know I should be grateful for what I have but I genuinely don't think I can eat another can of chicken noodle soup or I might crack my head on the bowl. And that's why I'm embarrassed. That's such a bratty thing to say. And someone out there would kill for a morsel of what I have.

Okay now to say why I'm angry. I'm angry because my parents aren't the richest people. It's not their fault, they work really hard. But I'm hungry. I'm angry because celebrities have enough money to spend hundreds of dollars at the grocery store and stock up. I saw Justin Bieber and Hailey with a cart filled to the brim. I'm so jealous. I'm angry because I'm hungry.

I'm sad because I asked my brothers for food and they both ignored me. It's not their fault though. My eldest has two kids to raise and he works hard. So I'm sure he just couldn't. The other one is in a different country, and when he did respond, he didn't seem to grasp the situation. I believe he thinks that I'm just being annoying. I don't have the energy to correct him.

This is really long, and for that I'm sorry. I don't sound very eloquent today either...

I'm just hangry, I may delete this later.