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I'm a bit lonely. It's not as bad as it was before, or maybe I'm just getting more numb as the days go by, more unbothered. I can't even cry anymore. No tears will come out. Maybe a drop if I try.

I tried clearing the air with someone I care about but got hurt by. I typed out a long message, but I don't have the courage to send it. Its a month later I'm speaking about it because I deleted the message I sent when it was recent. But the issue still weighs on my mind, still makes things awkward between us. And I feel lonely. No one messages me, no one calls, and ive realized how sad that is. I prayed days ago and that was the only time I didn't feel alone. I felt happy. I didn't know it was sad, because I had God. It was enough. It is enough. But even now, when I prayed, I didn't know what to say to Him. Now I feel...I don't know. Nothing and everything and not enough. Too much

Feelingsareweird2 wrote:I'm a bit lonely. It's not as bad as it was before, or maybe I'm just getting more numb as the days go by, more unbothered. I can't even cry anymore. No tears will come out. Maybe a drop if I try.
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I tried clearing the air with someone I care about but got hurt by. I typed out a long message, but I don't have the courage to send it. Its a month later I'm speaking about it because I deleted the message I sent when it was recent. But the issue still weighs on my mind, still makes things awkward between us. And I feel lonely. No one messages me, no one calls, and ive realized how sad that is. I prayed days ago and that was the only time I didn't feel alone. I felt happy. I didn't know it was sad, because I had God. It was enough. It is enough. But even now, when I prayed, I didn't know what to say to Him. Now I feel...I don't know. Nothing and everything and not enough. Too much

Do you feel more comfort from connection with people, with God, or from time alone and how does that change depending on your mood?