So, what now?

[Samcas]

So I'd been depressed for 6 years when I finally started to get back on track. During, and after, the depression i get the feeling my heart is surrounded by a brick wall that blocks any emotions. I always act like I'm happy, which I am not really, but I am also not sad. Its like I am in a faux-state of happy where nothing really gets to you any more, you just care less. I am not saying I'm not happy with where I am now, comparing to a few years ago, I have made tremendous steps and I am proud of that. But for a few years now I am just living my life without a goal or a purpose to aim at. I just live my life and I'll see what's ahead. It's like (almost) everything just isn't important. This gives me a hollow lonesome feel. What do I do?

[growingrace]

have you thought of volunteering your time to something you might be interested in? I keep an agenda and make daily goals.. things that I think of but never try to do it gives me daily purpose, and I love the journey. let me know if you try it

[lovetodance2018]

I am glad to hear you are doing better from your depression. As you know it takes time to get better and you sound like you are making progress. I agree with growingingrace. I have found that volunteering encourages me and helping others makes me feel good. I also found this article that will be helpful about how helping others help's you. (https://bit.ly/2JeZvl3) Also, finding things you like to do will help you find more joy in your life. My faith has helped me know that I am not alone and my joy comes from Him. I can't do it on my own. Are you going to counseling? It is helpful to share your thoughts with others and find strategies into enjoying life. This group provides counseling services. (https://bit.ly/2DS3v7S) Please keep us updated on how you are feeling. You will be in my thoughts and prayers.

[lovetodance2018]

How are you doing this week? You have been in my thoughts and prayers. Hugs!

[CamGirl]

go out and see the world... sometimes hitting the road helps us see where we really want to go... cheer up!

[RustyTavern]

So I'd been depressed for 6 years when I finally started to get back on track. During, and after, the depression i get the feeling my heart is surrounded by a brick wall that blocks any emotions. I always act like I'm happy, which I am not really, but I am also not sad. Its like I am in a faux-state of happy where nothing really gets to you any more, you just care less. I am not saying I'm not happy with where I am now, comparing to a few years ago, I have made tremendous steps and I am proud of that. But for a few years now I am just living my life without a goal or a purpose to aim at. I just live my life and I'll see what's ahead. It's like (almost) everything just isn't important. This gives me a hollow lonesome feel. What do I do?

Get a hobby. Become quality at your job though it sounds like you don't have a job in which case enjoy that you're living off someone else. Get that hobby.