More depressed than ever.
Posted: Fri Jul 28, 2017 10:41 am
I've pretty much always had depression but recently I'm feeling it more than ever and I honestly don't know what to do with myself. I recently broke up with my girlfriend, I'd met her at university once I'd left home and I was already dealing with the anxiety of leaving home and all my friends who had left to go to other universities across the country. We'd been together for about a year and a half, the whole time I was with her my depression kind of subsided but I still had a lot of anxiety.
Since this was my first relationship I made quite a few mistakes I won't go into (I never cheated or anything) but I always felt guilty and saddened and over time I'd always tell her the truth and thought it'd make things okay again. A few days ago we broke up because she couldn't deal with the mistakes I made even though she loves me and I kind of can't blame her. I know people say eventually you move on, but I'd never loved someone this much.
I'm now back to how I was and I probably feel even worse, I feel absolutely worthless and I don't know what do with myself. I've got pretty much no one to talk to for support as the only couple of friends I have are always busy, my parents are part of the problem my relationship didn't work out and they always deny my feelings when I tell them I'm depressed even before all of this happened and I don't know where to start when it comes to seeing a doctor or a therapist? I'm just stuck by myself in my flat not being able to eat, sleep or do any of the things I found enjoyable.
Any advice or support would be appreciated
Since this was my first relationship I made quite a few mistakes I won't go into (I never cheated or anything) but I always felt guilty and saddened and over time I'd always tell her the truth and thought it'd make things okay again. A few days ago we broke up because she couldn't deal with the mistakes I made even though she loves me and I kind of can't blame her. I know people say eventually you move on, but I'd never loved someone this much.
I'm now back to how I was and I probably feel even worse, I feel absolutely worthless and I don't know what do with myself. I've got pretty much no one to talk to for support as the only couple of friends I have are always busy, my parents are part of the problem my relationship didn't work out and they always deny my feelings when I tell them I'm depressed even before all of this happened and I don't know where to start when it comes to seeing a doctor or a therapist? I'm just stuck by myself in my flat not being able to eat, sleep or do any of the things I found enjoyable.
Any advice or support would be appreciated