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Had enough.
I need to scream, I need to explode, I need to punch something. I'm angry and don't know why? I feel so ashamed and don't know why? I'm stuck in hospital like a god damn prisoner!!
I'm trapped an there is no way out.
I'm panicking, I feel scared, I'm lost.

What do I do?
I feel completely lifeless right now.

This is one reason I suggested you think about tomorrow, not today. It's important to be present; Yes. But before you were trapped in the hospital, you were panicking in the homeless shelter, and before that locked (trapped?) in your room at home.

I'd like you to think about times you weren't trapped. What were they like, where were you, what were you doing, what made them different?

You may not ever get back to those days. But you may be able to bring something of those days with you, the good parts, to be here now.

And what would you do with tomorrow if you weren't trapped?

Ah okay thank you, good suggestion I must admit though.
I will try and think about tomorrow and not today, but it harder than you think, but will keep on trying.

I suppose I was panicking and trapped in my room and in the homeless shelter...

I would be doing anything put this; anything put crying and self harming. So listening to music, writing, art work, hanging with friends etc...
But that's all gone, as I am now trapped and no way out; unless I try and escape again like I did earlier on.

If I wasn't in hospital I probably would of spent my Christmas self harming and crying... Ops.

Thankyou.

Arghhhhhhhhh!!!!

Die.

If it helps any (and fine; maybe you won't believe me but) I feel extremely trapped myself. It can happen to anyone.

But even in a cage, we still have a choice over what we think about. I think too much about how I want to get out of here. It doesn't do me any good; not without a plan, I mean a real plan; not just a wishing for an end, plan.

It's always been lonely being me.

Oh Frame; sorry to hear that

I feel so so trapped; I am trying to escape this hospital and run away. Is it a good idea? I don't know, but I'll see if it's worth it eh?

I want to die, that's all that's on my mind, I'm trapped in my head too.

Still just want to die and it's Christmas.
Nobody cares

I want to die so badly now ARGHHHH!!!!
I hate my life

Can I feel anymore depressed?
Can I feel anymore hurt?
Can I feel anymore pain?
Can I feel anymore tears?
Can I feel anymore of the nightmare?

Answer to all is NO!!
I need to go, I need peace.
Everything has just gotten too much for me to handle, especially all on my own.
ARGHHH!

I can't be hurt anymore.
I can't be here anymore.
I can't be alone anymore.

I just can't do life anymore.

I feel like I've given up.
ARGHHH!

You are in a hospital. IF you play the game, you can get out.

There are probably craft projects and such, but NOT if you are climbing the walls. Only the cooperative kids get the fun stuff, so find someone on staff you can tolerate and ask them how can I honestly do whatever it takes and get out of here?

They WANT to tell you. They don't want you here except to keep you safe. If you didn't NEED a little help right now, you would not be there. So accept it as a fact of life and take your power back by finding out what it takes to win the game and get your freedom back.

You are a survivor, you made it this far, use your energy and intelligence to make something GOOD for yourself. Ask about music. They may be able to get some music for you.

If you don't ask, you'll never know.

Thank you!

I do listen to music, on my phone...
But it's not that simple anymore, I'm not in hospital.... I'm on a section(which means I am on a mental health unit)....
I am not well at all that's all I can say.

I do craft things etc....
But I just seem to be more and more lonely.

ARGHHHH!!!
I feel so suicidal.
My parents make me angry.
I have nobody, I am so alone.

ARGHHH!!

ARGHHHHH!!
Woke up feeling messed up.
Woke up feeling confused.
Woke up crying.

I am in the worst mood going,
Refusing to take meds etc...

ARGHHH!!