I need help.

[unknown008]

hi im probably going to bore use all with this essay but I need to talk to someone im going crazy basically ive just turned 26 I have the most perfect 16 month son and im still with his dad. He keeps saying im depressed im dragging him down im not fun to be round and im a bit of a bore. Whats worse I can relate to all that I am a bore I don't work I sit all day on the couch which drives him mental and I look after are son. Ive recentely moved from Ireland to Vancouver but im not depressed about moving I was actually excited with the move to start a new life and looking forward to being happy. So far all ive done is fight with my boyfriend we never see eye to eye on anything but hes not the worst boyfriend but when we fight he throws things in my face like im a shit cleaner, I sit on my whole all day, ur always complaining that ur fat and drinking coke, uve no job and ive no sex drive which is the major problem. Im trying to be better at it for him but im just crap unattractive and im horrible to look at so why would anyone want sex with me. Basically hes stuck with me im the 3rd girl who got pregnant with his fourth child and ruined his life. Ive no friends and I find it hard to meet or even talk to new people were he is the opposite hes confident and out going. I don't want to be a single mum and im bringing it upon myself. I just feel hes no time for me we never do anything together he sits on his phone all night demands food then expects sex hardly romantic. I never take anything off him im not a girl that sits in the house sponging off him but recentely I keep getting that through in my face I no he doesn't love me and I don't no what to do ive no one to go home too no one likes me there either I feel like a failure I thought we were going to work and be happy. but I seem to be ruining things just by being myself. The reason im here today is that ive drove him to complete melt down cuz all ive done is cry and scream n hit him it started when I walked to the shop to get us food as he demanded lunch n there was nothing in the cupboards so I said Id go get something if he looked after are son next thing I come through the door n there he is with his iphone ready to record my reaction cuz hes shaved my sons lovely head of long blonde hair he says I shouldn't of got on the way I did which was screaming hitting him and crying hysterically now hes stormed off to the bar. can someone share an insight to what is wrong with me how to I fix it and how I can become fun I don't no who I am anymore nothing excites me and im always negative cuz im constantly being put down

[fallen]

i'm a guy and this is my view point. your boyfriend wants a cleaner, a cook,and someone to have sex with on demand, no offence he's an idiot.
he's done this before with other women and i dare say he will do this again, this seems to be his pattern, he's controlling and mean.
he likes to keep you suppressed and under his control.
this is not your fault. is it possible to seek professional help or to find a mothers group where you will certainly find support and advice from other women.
it was not okay for your boyfriend to shave your little boys head, just to get back at you.
i repeat your boyfriends an idiot.
be strong talk to other women who can give you strength
take care