a mass mess of emotions..

[sea_breeze]

i dont know whether im coming or going, up n down, leave in constant fear n dread, escape sometimes by sleep, but not really as i just dream alo, where i can taste, feel pain, always either lost, trying to save myself or others, very mixed up , dont feel secure in the city i live, go thru severe boredem, feel rage at times, not towards others, want t be different, self esteem nil...... i do try to distrat my self with gardening, reading, music, my pet,, feel separation anxiety from my family in canada, n im 51,,, how bad is that...

[Al]

Seperation anxiety is normal sea-breeze, it shows you care, and has no age limits. In fact the older you get the more you appreciate family i think, and miss them when not there. And boredom is so.... BORING. Its the monotony of life that gets to me, i get bored of everything and everyone, but its good you have hobbys, reading and music and being online help me at times but isnt always enough is it

[sea_breeze]

Seperation anxiety is normal sea-breeze, it shows you care, and has no age limits. In fact the older you get the more you appreciate family i think, and miss them when not there. And boredom is so.... BORING. Its the monotony of life that gets to me, i get bored of everything and everyone, but its good you have hobbys, reading and music and being online help me at times but isnt always enough is it

do u ever get where boredom is so much its almost painful? goin to have a bit of a rest me head time.. lol.. jeannie

[Al]

i switch between feeling on the edge of despair, as though loneliness were a physical thing that is inside of me and eating me up, to absolute numbness like i feel nothing, and just dont care about anything, myself included. Dunno which i prefer sometimes. Weird thing is i do have friends, but rarely bother seeing them, so they are dropping in number now
Thats why i came to these sites, to find others that actually get me, and know what its like. It frickin sucks right?
Boredom. Ennui. call it what you will, i battle against it all the time. One day drags into the next and i just wish i could hibernate for a few months!

[sea_breeze]

i switch between feeling on the edge of despair, as though loneliness were a physical thing that is inside of me and eating me up, to absolute numbness like i feel nothing, and just dont care about anything, myself included. Dunno which i prefer sometimes. Weird thing is i do have friends, but rarely bother seeing them, so they are dropping in number now
Thats why i came to these sites, to find others that actually get me, and know what its like. It frickin sucks right?
Boredom. Ennui. call it what you will, i battle against it all the time. One day drags into the next and i just wish i could hibernate for a few months!

yh i understand out the hibernation part, ,, do u get so overwhelmed with thoughts, that its hard to express so u get all this stuff stayin inside u,

[mr_black]

do u ever get where boredom is so much its almost painful? goin to have a bit of a rest me head time.. lol.. jeannie

I move from one activity to another in an attempt to keep boredom in check. I may get into watching TV for a while, then move onto playing video games, then mess with my computers till I get bored with that. I helps break the monotony of being alone all the time but it's easy to succumb to. I sleep as much as possible to pass the time.