Just want to sleep
Posted: Mon Nov 21, 2011 10:24 pm
Darn it just seems all I want to do is sleep,I have to go to bed before my Spouse or I will lay here half the night thinking about how unhappy I am and wondering who this person is that I'm laying next too.
I have considered moving into the extra bedroom,I guess sleeping is a form of escape for Me a place where I can dream of things that are good and peaceful,a place where the things of the World are not present and can't harm Me emotional,If you were to ask Me twenty years ago or even ten,would I have wind up in such a place,I would have told you noway,
If you were to ask us,I and my Spouse twenty Six years ago would We be at this place in our Marriage where we are now,We both would have said"no way" well what the H$&l happen,I mean what did we let happen,I know as you get older things change,people change,there likes and dislikes change.
What happens when all the sudden you can no longer find that love that you once had,do you just settle for it,because it's all you have?
You know it's hard to see the future through these eyes,to see hope in a better tomorrow,BUT! I keep telling myself,"Don't you ever give up on yourself,others may,but you can not"I believe God speaks to me and tell me he will never ever give up on me,so I must stand with my Father God and say I will never give up,I will fight a goo fight until the end.
I will be reaching out to the many who are Hart broken,confused and afraid,
I will continue to pray for all of us and I hope there are those out there that will join me in my prayer for our healings,may God bless and keep us under his Wings.
I have considered moving into the extra bedroom,I guess sleeping is a form of escape for Me a place where I can dream of things that are good and peaceful,a place where the things of the World are not present and can't harm Me emotional,If you were to ask Me twenty years ago or even ten,would I have wind up in such a place,I would have told you noway,
If you were to ask us,I and my Spouse twenty Six years ago would We be at this place in our Marriage where we are now,We both would have said"no way" well what the H$&l happen,I mean what did we let happen,I know as you get older things change,people change,there likes and dislikes change.
What happens when all the sudden you can no longer find that love that you once had,do you just settle for it,because it's all you have?
You know it's hard to see the future through these eyes,to see hope in a better tomorrow,BUT! I keep telling myself,"Don't you ever give up on yourself,others may,but you can not"I believe God speaks to me and tell me he will never ever give up on me,so I must stand with my Father God and say I will never give up,I will fight a goo fight until the end.
I will be reaching out to the many who are Hart broken,confused and afraid,
I will continue to pray for all of us and I hope there are those out there that will join me in my prayer for our healings,may God bless and keep us under his Wings.