New to all of this and need help and support..
Posted: Wed Aug 03, 2011 2:06 am
Hi everyone, I was diagnosed with depression a month ago and am new here to try things out.
My mom was diagnosed with breast cancer a year ago, and around that time my dad fell into a deep depression. These events, along with many other occurrences that were less than fortunate, have caused a chemical reaction in my body and I fell into a depression. My mom is doing exceptional and has had 3 clear check ups with her doc, but despite this my body/brain is still pretty well messed up. My psychiatrist explained that since i'm a bit younger, my depression has manifested with irritability and sleeplessness. I have been on meds now for about 2 weeks and am doing exceptional. I think i'm really starting to get a handle on my life and living with depression. That's not the struggle for me right now. The struggle is how to tell my boyfriend of 3 months.
We started dating in April and before we started dating he asked me if I would consider myself depressed, because his last 2 girlfriends WERE depressed and they gave him a lot of trouble. Now at the time, I wasn't in counseling, I was not depressed. But he was gone on vacation when I started the whole counseling process and has only been here for 2 weeks tops. I felt hiding it was the best option for our relationship before I told my counselor about it all and she said that a relationship can not thrive on lies and deceit. I know i have to tell him, but I'm afraid 1. he's gonna be mad I hid it from him 2. the possibiltiy of him thinking I lied to him about it before we started dating and 3. that he won't want to be with my anymore because i'll be too much trouble. He's always saying how I'm the happiest girl he's ever been with (which is true) but I just don't know how to explain to him that it's not that i'm not happy, it's that my brain isn't functioning correctly because of past events. This is all so rough on me. My boyfriend gets back from his last vacation on Sunday so I have a little bit of time to prepare what i'm gonna say and prepare myself for what might happen. I go and see my counseler tomorrow for an appointment so I'll talk to her about it then as well, but I'm losing sleep over it now and I know this is half a novel long but if anyone is out there that can give me advice/support it is greatly needed.
Much love.
My mom was diagnosed with breast cancer a year ago, and around that time my dad fell into a deep depression. These events, along with many other occurrences that were less than fortunate, have caused a chemical reaction in my body and I fell into a depression. My mom is doing exceptional and has had 3 clear check ups with her doc, but despite this my body/brain is still pretty well messed up. My psychiatrist explained that since i'm a bit younger, my depression has manifested with irritability and sleeplessness. I have been on meds now for about 2 weeks and am doing exceptional. I think i'm really starting to get a handle on my life and living with depression. That's not the struggle for me right now. The struggle is how to tell my boyfriend of 3 months.
We started dating in April and before we started dating he asked me if I would consider myself depressed, because his last 2 girlfriends WERE depressed and they gave him a lot of trouble. Now at the time, I wasn't in counseling, I was not depressed. But he was gone on vacation when I started the whole counseling process and has only been here for 2 weeks tops. I felt hiding it was the best option for our relationship before I told my counselor about it all and she said that a relationship can not thrive on lies and deceit. I know i have to tell him, but I'm afraid 1. he's gonna be mad I hid it from him 2. the possibiltiy of him thinking I lied to him about it before we started dating and 3. that he won't want to be with my anymore because i'll be too much trouble. He's always saying how I'm the happiest girl he's ever been with (which is true) but I just don't know how to explain to him that it's not that i'm not happy, it's that my brain isn't functioning correctly because of past events. This is all so rough on me. My boyfriend gets back from his last vacation on Sunday so I have a little bit of time to prepare what i'm gonna say and prepare myself for what might happen. I go and see my counseler tomorrow for an appointment so I'll talk to her about it then as well, but I'm losing sleep over it now and I know this is half a novel long but if anyone is out there that can give me advice/support it is greatly needed.
Much love.