thanks Jeanie and Stephen. Your thoughts and well wishes helped.
I'm really trying to put the whole situation/feelings behind me. Not easy for me to do either!
I'm sorry I couldn't share at the time I posted it. Sometimes you just have to get something out of your system before you can even put it into words.
Thanks again you two!
sometimes these days, its easier for me to just forget about horrible things that someone has done to me, then to think them out and hash, and rehash. Its very draining.
I think there's a fine line between going over and over something just for the sake of it, and being able to take the bad experience, thinking about it and learning from it. The latter being very hard to do... I just don't know if hiding, and closing things away is helpful in the long run.
I've tried to repress a lot of things that have occurred to me in my life, but ultimately I've found working through them with a therapist is the most productive way forward.
I understand your point Stephen. I tend to hash things out to the point of exhaustion. Does that makes sense? I over think things way too easily. A bad habit I picked up from my Mom. Don't get me wrong either...I never forget the things I try to repress. lol They tend to rear their ugly heads, when a heated argument over something unrelated occurs. Another bad habit I'm always trying to work on!