Back to square one, ive had enough

[PrincessRose]

I'm really really fed up with my life, its pointless, boring and miserable.
I got to a point last time i felt depressed where I became overweight - I finally lost it all and was at a happy size but since leaving college its all come back and I feel huge, I try to eat healthy but im always hungry and I never go out which doesnt help.

I have only one friend, I'm suppose to be meeting her tomorrow for the first time in ages but I feel disgusting cos she will notice how much weight ive put on, also ive got no clothes what so ever that fit me so i think im going to have to cancel and ill be stuck in the house again.

Im not at college anymore, Im unemployed and no one is giving me a job or even an interview, ive no money so i cant afford to go anywhere or do anything.

I get up i eat, i go online, i get dressed into something horrible that doesnt fit me, possibly nip to the shops, get in my pjs, eat, watch tv, eat, watch tv, bed. THATS IT! 7 days a week. I really hate my life.

I feel fat and I always look disgusting, I feel like im existing but not living.
Im not sure what the point of this was I just needed a rant

[Destination]

That is half the problem isn't it? Every day the same and nothing seems to change. The same boring routine and all the future seems to promise is more of the same.

Sometimes I just want to scream and break out of the stupid routine, but what else is there to do? If I go out where would I go? Going for a walk and being broke is no fun. Going anywhere by myself is just boring.

I can understand how it feels to have to wear that heavy mantle of every day sameness. I get told a lot to do something different. But what would I do that would be different?

[PrincessRose]

Exactly!!
I hate it when i say I am bored and someone tells me to go for a walk, going for a walk is just as boring as sitting in!