I'm just wondering...
There are 7 billion people on this planet; it seems absurd to make such a big deal about death. I realise that suicidal behaviour is frowned upon by white society...however...
The Japanese, Chinese, Vietnamese...other cultures don't get so histrionic about a person's choice to end honourably. Rather than decompensate to the point of disgust, like soiling one's self.
I know the ripple effect can be so horrendously harmful. I don't want to hurt my family in any way).
I'm just wondering (triggering)
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touchy topic there.... suicide.
I think it depends on your own personal beliefs as to whether it's an accepted practice or not.
However, here, on these forums, it's not encouraged in any way. Suicide is a permanent solution. There is no changing the mind. There is no coming back from it. It never ends the pain but only transfers it to those you leave behind. I know when we are in pain, we don't see any other options, but there are always options. We have to search for them until we find them.
It's not absurd at all to make a big deal about something that involves so much loss, grief and pain.
I think it depends on your own personal beliefs as to whether it's an accepted practice or not.
However, here, on these forums, it's not encouraged in any way. Suicide is a permanent solution. There is no changing the mind. There is no coming back from it. It never ends the pain but only transfers it to those you leave behind. I know when we are in pain, we don't see any other options, but there are always options. We have to search for them until we find them.
It's not absurd at all to make a big deal about something that involves so much loss, grief and pain.
Thank you for your response, Obayan.
I've been on medication for nearly 3 weeks and, I can see now your position. I wouldn't have been able to before.
I've ordered a book from Amazon called, "How I Stayed Alive When My Brain Was Trying to Kill Me". The author treated her suicidality as a type of addiction, successfully thwarting the trajectory toward suicide.
It's not completely clear how I ended up on that path, but I'm reading a book, "Why People Die By Suicide" that posits that the main markers are hopelessness, lack of belonging, a feeling of being burdensome, and an acquired 'lethality'. I had, completely unconsciously, swum far into that particular channel. That much is clear to me by my initial post; it's clear to me now that I had lost much of my mental acuity and presence of mind.
I was dangerously close to that impulsive act, and am grateful for having been given a method whereby I might return to sane thinking.
My task now is to begin to wire other neuropathic options and turn resolutely away from that dark path. I read recently, about suicide, that, "If it has ever been an option, however, the black night has a tendency to remain in play." I must, if I am to survive, return to that sense of self that would weather the storms, to make that return my highest priority. For therein lies the integrity toward life.
DylanS
I've been on medication for nearly 3 weeks and, I can see now your position. I wouldn't have been able to before.
I've ordered a book from Amazon called, "How I Stayed Alive When My Brain Was Trying to Kill Me". The author treated her suicidality as a type of addiction, successfully thwarting the trajectory toward suicide.
It's not completely clear how I ended up on that path, but I'm reading a book, "Why People Die By Suicide" that posits that the main markers are hopelessness, lack of belonging, a feeling of being burdensome, and an acquired 'lethality'. I had, completely unconsciously, swum far into that particular channel. That much is clear to me by my initial post; it's clear to me now that I had lost much of my mental acuity and presence of mind.
I was dangerously close to that impulsive act, and am grateful for having been given a method whereby I might return to sane thinking.
My task now is to begin to wire other neuropathic options and turn resolutely away from that dark path. I read recently, about suicide, that, "If it has ever been an option, however, the black night has a tendency to remain in play." I must, if I am to survive, return to that sense of self that would weather the storms, to make that return my highest priority. For therein lies the integrity toward life.
DylanS
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