Postby Eric0620 » Fri Oct 21, 2011 4:41 am
Hi Brittlane93 - that's one of the many cruel things about depression is that it mercilessly makes target-practice on almost every aspect of your life. I did graduate on time from high school back in 1988, but before that I was failing because I just could not concentrate or really care about grades because of how miserable I was. My memory of high school is a blur and absolutely hated it, and having to force myself to bring up my grades so I could graduate was a huge challenge for me. I'm sorry it's affecting you in college, but it's not too late and know you can pull through it fine. Easy for me to say, I know, but I am offering support and want to say to try the best you can. Try doing a little at a time, if that's what it takes --- I remember college and the expectations are a huge stressor.
I'm sorry you lost a good friend over depression and am very puzzled by their rejection --- I won't speak badly of them as it's not my place, but the reaction from them should have been the opposite and embraced you with compassion. I've been cautious about who I tell about my past because some I just know would never understand, and they can't profess to be experts on the subject when they never lived it like we have. I wouldn't wish it on anyone, but in a sense it would almost be retributive justice to those who turn their back on us if they spent a week in our shoes so they could have their eyes opened and understand why depression levels us. You're doing exactly what you should --- you're trying, a difficult and courageous thing to do, and you're doing it gallantly. I know it's tough, but hang in there, Brittlane93 --- we are all with you here.
Sincerely,
Eric
