tired

[hurtfull]

I,m so tired trying to live without my son and being alone day after day.now they tell me besides my heart being no good now I,m diabetes and if it doesn,t come down I could lose some toes.Before I o to bed I pray not to wake but everyday I do.I lost my son In May 26 which is coming up soon.So the pain grows stronger.I want to be with him so much.I just lost a brother and a uncle and I don,t care about them.I have others also that are on their death bed also and still I feel nothing.But then again I know if I died they would not care about my death just about the things that are all brand new in my storage building and what they could get.So what does it come to tired of fighting and tired of caring.

[crystalgaze]

You can will your things to whom you want, though, right?

I'm sorry about your son.... I hope you are doing as okay as you can.