Thoughts on "Recovery"

[darklight32]

recovery, well just embrace that dark side of you and you'll shall be fine, like me, it's soothing, there's no fear since you've overcame it, and i kinda want to do the fighting, looking for the so-called strength.

[crystalgaze]

Yup! So true! I found when I embraced it, it slowly cooled itself out...

~whisper~ I could almost say it loved me back for it....!

[Warmsoul/Jeanie13]

That which we embrace, we learn a lesson of life from. May not be the lesson we seek, but it is taught.

(((((((((( Crystal and darklight))))))))))

[crystalgaze]

Just some more thoughts.... Hopefully I'm not repeating myself or if I am, I am describing it better/differently....

25. Having HOPE (Believing you will catch a break... Dusting yourself off & trying again... Letting stuff run off of you like water.... Trying not to internalize stuff too much...)

26. Reducing your negative stress (distress)/negative emotions [ANGER]--whether it comes from how you think, how you cope with situations, people, etc.

27. Having some kind of support system (from people whom you love & who care about you as well)

28. Friends? (non-threatening manner) Don't keep toxic people around you (people who just use you or behave in a way that triggers you)

29. Getting checked for physical ailments... Keep a journal about it even....

30. Feeling loved? (Don't stand for schupidness out of love, though, because obviously that person doesn't value, care or understand you enough.)

31. Soul searching on a regular basis... (gently pushing your boundaries to make progress.... It's like going to your own psychologist appointment...)

32. [Responsible] Sex? (with someone who doesn't mind your sides; even better with someone you love/trust?) Get the endorphins crankin'??

33. Being comfortable with yourself & your sides (you know, who/what ya are)....

This last one is usually a toughie for me.... I can be quite forgetful, goofy/silly, shy/nervous, sickly & clumsy/scattered--& those times where I fail & make errors/mistakes....

Those traits make me mad with myself... It's not that I want perfection... It's just that those errors I make are ones I wish I hadn't made.

Failure is one of the most disturbing ones to me.... I sometimes feel like an F-up when I don't get things or don't execute stuff in a timely manner.

Learning is great, but it can be so expensive at times the way I become engrossed: Hardly any fluids or food; very little sleep; become reclusive; don't wish to be around others; don't go out the house.... BAH! Balance is what I need to do....)

[xn728]

You always explain things in such a great way my dear onika ,,and i really cant say much about that ,,you know what you need to do ,,i wish i could figure myself out this way sometimes ,,if i open the door to my mind and look in its just chaos LOL,,,,all i want to say is i have missed you so much ,,but i understand what you must do ,,and i would like to think i have a good idea how you feel ,,,your well loved here by everyone
and i love you lots ,you just take care and dont forget were we are ,,if you should fall onika ,,you dont have to look for my hand ,,its always there to catch your fall ,,hugs (((((Onika)))),,,love you lots ken xxxx

[TackingIntoTheWind]

Some very useful food for thought there!
I'm having particular difficulty with No. 33 at the moment! Sigh!
I also have a problem with failure, when I don't get things or can't seem to do things as quickly as I feel that I should. I tend to " melt-down " when I feel that I'm failing, or not coping fast enough. This just makes me feel even more worthless and humiliated and frustrated, than I did to begin with. I lose even more faith in myself, and I feel that people are also losing faith in me, thinking that I'm weird or unstable, or, even worse, feeling sorry for me.
( I also have an innate suspicion of pickled eggs. But, doesn't everyone?! )

[crystalgaze]

34....? If running is hard, then walk. If walking is hard, then crawl. If crawling is hard, then sit still. If sitting still is hard, then stretch/jump. (I think you get the idea. The point of all this is that there's got to be something you can accomplish.)


I've been sitting still & crawling, especially in the last few days. Besides sitting still, I have seemed to completely shut down a few times recently. I figure it's necessary... because while I'm not actively triggered at the moment, it's quite near to the surface.

It's painful, but I think that if I face it, I will be able to move past it--at some point, even if it's not now. I stopped everything that I feel may contribute to triggering anything else right this minute. (I need a break!) Decompressing is taking more heart than I otherwise thought it would.

[Warmsoul/Jeanie13]

For me, when I get to that point, I rearrange rooms. Moving furniture, cleaning keeps my mind busy and gives me some sort of exercise.

Warmie

[crystalgaze]

35. Be careful what you say to yourself--whether you're thinking it, whispering it, shouting it, etc.

My other thought about recovery is this:

I believe that the reason depression is hard to the point of seeming impossible to beat is that from all that I can think of it,

Depression is a dis-ease that spans across many plains. What I mean is: It cripples you physically, emotionally, mentally, spiritually, etc. & so you're not just fighting ONE thing. Even under any one of those categories, there are several sub-issues.... It's many things--often at once!! & for those of us who don't multitask well, it's such a monster.

Again, I will encourage everyone, including myself, to tackle depression in a holistic manner.