Cravings + Guilty Pleasures

[codejunkie365]

talk about guilty pleasure last weekend i was on a dating site i was feeling vulnerable and got chatting with a strange women and then she invited me over to her place and we talked but then it ended up being a night of crazy sex in which the next day i was scared and felt totally out of character i thought about wanting a family in which she had a very young daughter in which the father has on the weekends but with it being available to me i paniced and got scared but she has invited men over to her place before so in saying all of this i learned that giving into vulnerabilities is not the answer my doctor and psychiatrist have told me to not be so hard on myself i have learned a valueble lesson from this is that my deprssion and the new pills im on does this but at least i learned from it its been so very hard being separated from a nine year marriage for 1 year now and then recently braking up with my girlfriend i need to for a change focus on myself and getting stronger again.

i have tried to talk about this but have noticed that the live main chat room which is supposed to be for depression is being used as a lounge room hopefully both chat rooms become available so they are separate for those that want to express themselves can openly do that in a deprssion chat room and then those for a lounge room

[crystalgaze]

The latest one was.... a foot soak for me.... Menthol crystals are just great.

As for the above post, codejunkie just be careful. That's all we can do.

[codejunkie365]

hello Crystal i greatly appreciate your reply and will be very carefull my doctor has me doing a urine sample and then blood work next month just to be safe so that i dont have any sexually transmitted diseases im not too worried but better to be safe than sorry i deffinitly learned a lesson and realized that i need to get strong again mentally by rebuilding my self esteem and self worth... take care

[crystalgaze]

Hey again Code! I think you're taking the right steps. You're checking yourself. It's not always easy/simple doing damage control, as well as taking preventive measures.

Sometimes, I think preventive measures are the hardest. I feel they take a lot of thinking through & then the way I think about it may not be the result I get. I just try not to get myself hurt + hurt other people. If it doesn't work, it doesn't work, but I try not to be mean or nasty on the back of it.

Sending warmest wishes your way!

You take care as well.

[crystalgaze]

Pudding.... + good bananas (locally grown)

[Warmsoul/Jeanie13]

Hot apple cider...loving it.

[crystalgaze]

Oh ya! Hot apple cider is REALLY good! I can only seem to drink it when I'm in a place that's cold.... (going through winter)

[Warmsoul/Jeanie13]

(((((((((((( Crystal )))))))))

Just consider it juice. LOL

Warmie

[crystalgaze]

Papaya juice

Lavender body oil

[Warmsoul/Jeanie13]

potato chip cookies!!

[crystalgaze]

Really? Do tell! (What's a potato chip cookie!?)

[Warmsoul/Jeanie13]

A cookie that I make. Everyone seems to enjoy them, go figure.

I use crushed potato chips in them, not bad really. I don't eat them now but still enjoy making them. This weekend I think is the time to do that.

Warmie

[crystalgaze]

Walnuts & Coconut water

Coconut "meat"

Food/drinks from The Natural Sip

[Warmsoul/Jeanie13]

Just something cold...don't know why but that's it.

[crystalgaze]

Quite a bit here to add:

**Rice Cakes (Chocolate Crunch by Quaker Oats & Lundberg Cinnamon Toast)

I'm sure Apple Cinnamon is pretty good, too, but I haven't had a chance to try it yet, as that flavor wasn't in the store.


Seafood Vegetable Noodles Soup (Chinese Restaurant, Beijing)

Chicken Udon Noodle Soup (Another Chinese Restaurant, Panda)

Chicken with Onions (Also at another Chinese Restaurant, Jade)

1/4 lb Chipotle Blackbean Burger (Morning Star, I think)

Maple Syrup & Molasses, preferably Blackstrap (either in syrup, cereal or drizzled on my rice cake/ice cream)

Molasses doesn't break the bank, though!!

Vegan cream cheese alternative (I liked it & I don't believe it contained unfermented soy. It wasn't bad, can't remember the brand....)

Quinoa (can be absolutely delicious; Roland brings some flavored types that doesn't seem too toxic.)

Eden Key Lime/Lime/Lemon Ice Pops

Bean Dip (made from cooked beans; so far, I've done lentil & garbanzo with some saltless herb seasoning & crystal salt.)