11:41 yap

[Feelingsareweird2]

I always used to struggle with intense feelings of lonelinesss, especially in school. Now it's not so intense, just barely there at the surface, seeming bugger than it is when I zone in on it.
I pity myself. I have 168 contacts and I probably only speak to one. And no one messages me either. I hardly speak to anyone who I don't speak to first. And it's really sad, because I hold on to people. I don't want to be alone, but I've realized that can be toxic. So I let people go, I stop crowding them, I stop double, triple texting. But I feel so lonely. It's so sad.