it's destroying me being so alone

[Tom57]

As of now, the only friend I have had a couple of falls and is in the hospital emergency room now. It's not looking good. Losing him is going to be devastating.

I don't make friends easily.

I find myself feeling tense. At where I live it's hot now. Doors and windows have to be opened for me to feel comfortable and there are times I'm getting some unwanted noises.

[Tom57]

My friend is at a skilled care nursing home now and in tremendous pain. He and talked briefly today and I feel bad for him. He said that he may come back home but there's no telling when. Even if he fully recovers, which that would be a miracle, he won't be the same. So it's very sad.

If worse comes to worse with him, some would say that someone else would come along for me and be a friend. There had been a lot of times when I wanted to replace him as a friend along the way but I've never been able to. It's not going to be easy.