Springtime Depression

[Tom57]

It's springtime now. Time when flowers grow, trees bud, and grass turns green. Daylight is longer and it's warmer outside. That's nice, but for me I feel like my depression increases at this time of year.

I tend to like Nov. - March, but not springtime. One good reason I feel that way is because, over the years, bad things have happened to me in the spring. Things went wrong and tragedies happened, so I guess with the way spring is, it brings it all back.

Also, in the spring, I tend to anticipate that bad things are going to happen. So, this is not my favorite time of year. Anyone else experiences this?

[Feelingsareweird2]

I'm sorry to hear so. That sucks ass. I never cared for spring or any season really, and I wish I could better relate to you. Then maybe I could say the right things.

[shawn08]

Spring’s meant to be all fresh and happy, but if tough stuff happened then before, it can bring back bad memories. You’re definitely not alone-I get the blues around this time too. Maybe try little things that feel good, like a short walk in the sun or jotting down one positive thing each morning.

[Tom57]

I'm still feeling it now. A typical day at where I live is like this - it's cloudy in the morning and then it clears up in the afternoon. And then, in the early evening, it clouds up, and it stays that way until the next day in the afternoon. It's like "rinse and repeat".

I'm realizing now that all of the material possessions I have are old. My car, laptop, some little appliances I own that didn't come with the apartment, clothes, and more. And they all seem to be breaking down. I'll either have to put some repairs into them or replace them. Replacing them is expensive. It cost less to repair, but then other things will happen; so I'll be repairing and pouring more money into them over and over again. Money is tight for me and it makes me depressed. Along with my social life not being great and probably never will be.

I called my brother this morning and he told me that he and his wife got sick from a four day cruise they went on last week. He called me last Sunday and I hadn't heard from him in months. Our talk, last week, went OK but I thought that he was making a mistake in going on that cruise. I didn't tell him how I felt about it. I reached out to him this morning and then I ended feeling sorry that I did. Seems like bad things happens in the spring.

[jenniekimberly]

Spring feels tough for me, as it brings back painful memories. Despite the warmth and growth, I can’t help but feel anxious and expect bad things to happen. Crazy Cattle 3D

[Tom57]

Thank you Jenniekimberly for your nice reply. What you said is exactly how I feel.

And now I'm really hating spring. It's noisy outside with all kinds of construction work; and parking near my place is harder. I don't have assigned parking. All kinds of construction workers come to work, and once I leave to go out shopping (which I prefer to do it in the morning), then the space gets taken; and there's nowhere else to park nearby. There are times when a whole block is closed for parking for construction work. It brings a lot of anxiety and depression to me just on that. Not what I need.

[Prycejosh1987]

The best experience is spirit.