What else can I do?

[blackandblue]

I'm so lost. I feel like I'm relapsing again. Spiralling out of control. I've had depression on and off for years. Getting regular help from psychologist & taking antidepressants. I don't know what else to do. I was doing so well until last week. Since then a sudden loss of confidence has caused me to spiral downhill. I've been off work for depression for a year. I and don't know wht else to pursue - will I ever work? No interests at the moment. Minimal social interaction. Live alone. It seems like I've tried everything. Doing what I can but yet again I spiral down. Desperately trying but I need help!!!

[kitty28]

What happened last week?

[cupidgem3]

Hi,

What do you mean by 'relapsing'? I don't know if this helps, but I wonder how helpful it is to think of what's going on as a 'relapse'? I try and stay away from the medicalised language because it only distances me further and further away from the original reason for feeling a certain way.

I have realised that having sufferred with an inner pain/depression for so long what is the worst coping reaction is to not acknowledge feelings as they arise. We are EXPERTS at denial of existence. Atleast I am.

Someone said to me once you have de-pression. You press down on your needs. You bury them deep underground. You fear having them at the surface because having them on the surface might mean more burden.
But it's a paradox.

So I would like to know like Kitty what made you spiral? What was the one thing that tipped you over and what did you do afterwards? What didn't you do that you may have liked to have done that might have made the difference to the spiral? And this might not be just a momentary thing. It might be an ongoing thing...

I hope you're ok today