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Ok, this is most likly going to sound very confusing but most of the time I have no idea what I'm feeling. When people ask me what I feel I say sad because that is what I assume I'm feeling but actually I have no I idea what I'm feeling. If I were to describe how I feel I'd say I feel like I'm trapped in my mind that's like a room where all I do is watch from a window as people live their lives. Then when I really think about it realize I have no idea if thats true because when I try to find my feelings its like I feel something for a split second and then I just feel nothing.It's like I cant trust my mind. I think I'm feeling something but at the sametime I feel like there's nothing in me. I have no idea when this started but I'm never excited for anything and I dont even know what happy feels like....what anything besides fear, excitement ,anger and bordum feels like. Maybe there are more feelings but I dont know. Sometimes I'll cry but I dont really feel anything and wonder why I'm crying. I'm so confused and lost and I often think about what I'm feeling but I can't figure it out. Don't get me wrong I mean there are times where I'm hysterically laughing with my friends but even then sometimes I feel nothing. Right now I don't even know if what I wrote is true. Someone please help me I'm so confused and lost and I can't get any professional help till about 2 years from now when I'm old enough to move out. I want it to stop I wanna be human and expireance all those emotions. I mean sometimes I guess I feel normal emotions but theyre like....weak, watered down. I also have no idea if im depressed.

I think you have a serious problem of depression. See everyone is capable for doing his/her best. You should make yourself busy with some creative work like moving anywhere with your parents/relative or some good friends. Enjoy the nature, any funny movies outside. If you make yourself keep in just a room than you will always feel like the same. And you should change your thoughts means you should think positively.

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Perhaps tell your parents what you are feeling, what is going on, and ask them to help you get professional help? Just a thought.

Keep sharing here, it does help to release things.

Warmie

Thanks I talked to my mom about depression and what would happen if one of us had it. She basically down played it as a weakness so i cant tell my parents.

Talk with a counselor at school or you minister? Just a thought..

Warmie