Making Amends ????,,,xxxxxxxxxx
Posted: Mon Mar 29, 2010 5:00 am
Am i making amends ,do i understand this word properly ,i think i do ,my freind you gave a good example ,,and your so right ,,thankyou ,
just of late ive been very much not my self ,going from highs to lows in somecases in minutes ,,fran has felt the sting of my temper as have others ,even this morning i felt so angry and irritable ,why ,i have no idea ,maybe the meds ,maybe just life ,such hard times we face now ,me and my beauty ,savings have ran out ,and we now live week to week ,,
fifty one years old ,i thought our lifes would be a little easier by now ,ive worked had all my life and carried this black devil with me through every hour of every day ,and still it takes my life from me ,it has made me unpredictable ,and unstable ,look at my posts over the last few months ,,
one day im feeling good the next im going down ,,ive been out spoken here ,have stayed away to try and come back feeling better ,,but no ,
the disruption im causeing with my behaviour is not good for the forum ,
not good either for warmsoul ,our kind moderator ,,and not good for you my dear freinds ,when i become silent you always leave messages ,to say you worry about me ,,so wonderful ,but so unfair i should do this to you all ,,i cant say goodbye ,that is to painful ,i will just be queit ,but now you have hopefully read this at least you wont have to worry ,because you know were i am ,,just now at this minute im good ,but later in an hour or a day who knows ,you must know this please ,i love you all and care for you so much you are all the dearest of freinds ,,i will light that candle everynight till the day i die ,and your kindness and your pain i must still carry ,no one can stop me doing that ,each and everyone of you must stay safe and strong ,and stay together ,ta ta for now ,see you later,
hugs ((((((((((my dear freinds )))))))))),,lots of love ken ,xxxxxxx,,
just of late ive been very much not my self ,going from highs to lows in somecases in minutes ,,fran has felt the sting of my temper as have others ,even this morning i felt so angry and irritable ,why ,i have no idea ,maybe the meds ,maybe just life ,such hard times we face now ,me and my beauty ,savings have ran out ,and we now live week to week ,,
fifty one years old ,i thought our lifes would be a little easier by now ,ive worked had all my life and carried this black devil with me through every hour of every day ,and still it takes my life from me ,it has made me unpredictable ,and unstable ,look at my posts over the last few months ,,
one day im feeling good the next im going down ,,ive been out spoken here ,have stayed away to try and come back feeling better ,,but no ,
the disruption im causeing with my behaviour is not good for the forum ,
not good either for warmsoul ,our kind moderator ,,and not good for you my dear freinds ,when i become silent you always leave messages ,to say you worry about me ,,so wonderful ,but so unfair i should do this to you all ,,i cant say goodbye ,that is to painful ,i will just be queit ,but now you have hopefully read this at least you wont have to worry ,because you know were i am ,,just now at this minute im good ,but later in an hour or a day who knows ,you must know this please ,i love you all and care for you so much you are all the dearest of freinds ,,i will light that candle everynight till the day i die ,and your kindness and your pain i must still carry ,no one can stop me doing that ,each and everyone of you must stay safe and strong ,and stay together ,ta ta for now ,see you later,
hugs ((((((((((my dear freinds )))))))))),,lots of love ken ,xxxxxxx,,