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I don't know what else to write when I write what I think, I can't express how I feel, this emptiness is so deep, loneliness makes me so sad, realizing that I don't have anyone physically makes me feel a bad and unpleasant feeling, every time When I finish writing something I feel even more empty. I feel so exhausted, sick, I smell like medicine, I have stopped self-harming, but just as I got to a point where I did not understand why I was doing it, now I wonder why not do it again, at least those sensations of physical pain helped me deal with it internal pain inside of me. I have so many bad feelings and at the same time I don't feel anything. I think there will never be a way out of all this.

When I'm at my lowest and most suicidal, my loved ones are the first ones I think about. My actual grandparents. How dreadful it would be if I injured them. Even if I can't put my thoughts about hurting other peopledriving directions into words, that alone is often enough to get me out of a funk.

dupesection wrote:When I'm at my lowest and most suicidal, my loved ones are the first ones I think about. My actual grandparents. How dreadful it would be if I injured them. Even if I can't put my thoughts about hurting other people into words, that alone is often enough to get me out of a funk.

wacky flip
Sometimes in life, many people think of seeking death when falling into the dead end of impasse and despair. But besides that, many people have quite different thoughts. They will do anything to live in many different ways. Just being able to live, living is more important than all the worst things.