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I'm either down and out, mildly happy yet scared things will go bad, or outright angry.

The last week I have either faught suicidal ideation or been angry. Today I happen to be furious with no reasoning at all. I tried going for a jog. I tried sit ups, push ups, going shopping, eating, video games, music, resting. Nothing has helped so far and I'm tired of being a negative guy.

I want to be as positive for myself as I am for others, but I clearly dont know where to start

I also have no drive to do anything that would normally interest me. It's a sad day in my life when I start day dreaming about going to work